My Adventure to Fire Island!
(If you try to look for Fire Island part 1 on this blog, you won't find it, as I never made it. I meant to make a fire island post 4 years ago, and never did. Now I'm making a new one, since I went the other day! I might as well just throw both experiences in one.)
(If you try to look for Fire Island part 1 on this blog, you won't find it, as I never made it. I meant to make a fire island post 4 years ago, and never did. Now I'm making a new one, since I went the other day! I might as well just throw both experiences in one.)
Blast to the past 2015 (Hunty)
Picture it, Fire Island, September 2015. My friend Victor and I went on our very first gay adventure to Cherry Grove!
The first night, we went to a nice little place called Island Breeze. Which is a cute restaurant/bar. We stayed at one of the hotels, which they also apparently do porno's there. As later on, I saw on tumblr a porn gif, and I was like.... hey.. I've been in that hot tub!!!!!!! lol
I forgot what we did the first night, I just remembered being creeped out because there was a blood stain on the pillow case! lol
Our hotel host (For lack of a better word), was also a drag queen, and wanted us to come to their show the following day! (Spoiler Alert: Which we did.)
The first night, we went to the Ice Palace. We saw a drag queen who could imitate any famous singer! She was great! While we were enjoying the show, we had an un-welcomed guest!
This older man, who looked like a grown up version of Gibby from ICarly, came up to us. He told Victor that he was taken, and we couldn't have him, even though he's "so hot". Victor was like, Oh don't worry, I'm good!
Then the guy came up to me, and he's telling me about how cute I am, and he's kissing me on the cheek. Being the socially awkward person I am, I didn't know what to do! It wasn't until he pinched my butt, that I did a "karate move", as Victor called it. I told the guy to stop, and then he finally left us alone.
The next day, we went to see the drag queen who was also our hostess for our room. She was fabulous, she did lip singing. There was one part where she was standing on a table, and fell down! She got up and said she was glad she shoved a couch cushion up her ass! lmao.
She also went on about how one time she was swimming in the ocean, and had a "Day-Nightmare", which is like a day dream, but nightmare. I forgot what the story was about, but I just remember her saying she said something in front of her family.
Grown up Gibby from ICarly was there too, and he kept looking at me. He creeped me out! It's funny because I love older guys, but not that one!
Another situation, we were in the hot tub. Victor is talking to some guy next to us, about some scientific question he always wanted to ask someone. While that's happening, I'm sitting next to someone, and I kept feeling something touching my butt! I thought maybe the guy next to me kept bumping into me by accident, but no matter how many times I inched closer to Victor, I kept feeling it! I told Victor, and he was like, oh no, that's the guys boyfriend over there! He's not pinching your butt! Victor may be the whore of Babylon, but when it comes to cheaters, he's oblivious.
Events that I can't for the life of me remember, which chronological order it was.
1. This dude that owned one of the shops, kept being sexual with me, because he thought I was a prude. He touched my butt at one point, and was made a comment about "pinching my ass in public". He was just teasing me, so I didn't get creeped out by it or anything.
2. Victor and I went to an underwear party, and I actually went in my underwear! This was a big thing for me, since I was (and still am), socially awkward, and not always comfortable with my body.
At one point, everyone kept disappearing. Victor being the curious duckling he is, took a peep. He told me that I probably don't want to see what's happening. Turns out they were all behind a curtain, guys having sex with each other. Victor explained that he saw two dudes in one dude, and was very surprised. I left the underwear party early to go back to the hotel, leaving Victor behind. On my way back, there's a part where there's an opening where you can see the ocean.
It's night time, so all I see is a silhouette of two guys doing it (and I could hear the noises as well. lol)
I was like alrighty then, and kept walking.
I was a little worried about leaving Victor behind, but he came back shortly after.
3. Victor slept with the dude in the next room, this guy was jacked! Victor obviously has good taste! I for the life of me, could not find Victor, and I was worried something bad had happened to him. It wasn't until I noticed the door next to our room was open, and I just see Victor on top of this dude. Victor was wondering what was wrong, I told him, I just wanted to know where he was!
Apparently the guy he was with asked if I wanted to join, and Victor said I wouldn't be interested. (Which I wasn't.)
4. Victor and I spent most of the time swimming in their pool, and their hot tub! The hotel is clothing optional, and he mentioned that I had probably seen him naked more than I'd ever want to. I replied saying something along the lines of me not trying to look. lol
5. All the guys at the hotel were very sweet, but the ones you'd want to see naked, were wearing clothes, and the ones you wouldn't want to see naked, were...
At the same time, it was conveniently like a movie. Their private parts were usually hidden by their leg, or a chair... etc.. It was weird, but kind of funny how that kept happening.
6. The pool was salty, and I didn't want to know why....
6. The pool was salty, and I didn't want to know why....
Fire Island 2019 (Henny)
I got a new job in May 2019, and one of my co-workers invited me to go with her to the Halloween party they have every year. I have been wanting to go for years, but no one could ever come with me.
Conveniently, none of my friends could come out with me for Cherry's by the bay Halloween Hoe down. My friend Stephanie, was on a plane to Florida, and my friend Rebecca, was on a plane to China. How rude! jk. (Victor has since moved to Flo-Rye-Duh, on me. How inconsiderate! :P)
This was the first time I did mostly something on my own like this, I had never taken a train, or a ferry/boat by myself. I also spent a good 10 minutes trying to figure out how parking worked! I thought parking was closed, because the poles were down. But I saw someone else go up to it, and use a machine, which made the pole go up so the car could go through. (On the way home, it took a good 30 minutes to get out of the parking lot!!! Everyone took so long to pay and leave! I was literally a minute!!)
I get to the party, and I loved their cute decorations!
I was waiting for my co-worker to arrive, which took like 10-20 minutes. I wanted to dance, but I have this thing where I don't want people to feel sorry for me, for being alone, and by myself. But of course, standing in the corner looking confused doesn't help either!
When my co-worker got there, I got to meet all of her friends, and her son and husband. Her son works there, which I thought was weird since it's a gay bar, and he's straight.
I was a bit of a wallflower, and I kept getting looks by the staff. I hope they didn't think I was up to something, I'm just really awkward in social settings, and don't know what to do with myself if I'm alone. Which is why I really wanted a friend to accompany me, at-least I would have had someone to talk to, and not look like a loner.
At one point, my co-workers friend Kerri was by the docks, and right over the edge of the water. My co-worker was worried she was going to fall in. Kerri replied, "Don't worry, I'm a mermaid!". Which I just thought was hysterical!
Even though I didn't do much, It was nice to be there. Nice to be with my people! Sometimes I feel isolated, and or suffocated. Everyone I know is always straight, and I've had little exposure to lgbt people in the real world. (Since I don't get out much, most of the people I met have been through work)
Victor is my only LGBT friend, and he left me for Florida! (The nerve! jk)
It was nice to see so many guys hugging each other, or kissing, it was cute. But it also made me happy, that they could be themselves without persecution. Without being afraid of being discriminated against, gay bashed, or yelled at for being different. It made me really happy, and that thought that if by the miracle of the world... I could ever get a man, I would feel safe being there with him there.
I was a little alarmed that I saw more straight couples making out than gay, it felt kind of weird...
It's disappointing for people like me, who will find guys attractive, only to find out they're straight. So when going to a gay bar, and finding a couple of guys attractive, start making out with girls. It's disheartening... it's like, where are all the gay/bi guys that I am attracted too, it gets annoying sometimes. The point of a gay bar, is to meet lgbt people, not straight people, like what. I want to be attracted to gay/bi dudes for once, not straight guys. That already happens in a normal setting, the last thing I need is for it to happen at a gay club. (This happened when I went with Victor too..)
My co-workers friend said something that bothered me, she said that they couldn't talk about Trump there, because everyone there are trump haters.
Well no shit sherlock! Trump is taking lgbt people's rights away, it's bad enough he's already banned Transgendered people from the military, and now he's trying to allow lgbt people to be fired for being LGBT! He's scum! Of course we hate him, and we have every right to! It makes no sense that they can be disappointed that lgbt people are trump haters! How can we like someone who hates us because we exist?!
I didn't dance all that much, because even though I like to dance, I had terrible social anxiety. I didn't want to look like a loser dancing by myself, and I was also tired, and didn't know where I could dance since there were so many people.
My crippling anxiety did not allow me to make any new friends, there were a couple of cute guys there, and you bet your bottom dollar I didn't talk to them! Not only do I never know what to say, but I wouldn't even know where to start when talking to someone! I'm pretty sure one of the guys there I have on linkedin. lol
I have recently gotten into Lizzo, and was overjoyed to hear two of her songs play! One of them included "Boyz", which is one my favorites, as well as Rebeccas.
Victor is my only LGBT friend, and he left me for Florida! (The nerve! jk)
It was nice to see so many guys hugging each other, or kissing, it was cute. But it also made me happy, that they could be themselves without persecution. Without being afraid of being discriminated against, gay bashed, or yelled at for being different. It made me really happy, and that thought that if by the miracle of the world... I could ever get a man, I would feel safe being there with him there.
I was a little alarmed that I saw more straight couples making out than gay, it felt kind of weird...
It's disappointing for people like me, who will find guys attractive, only to find out they're straight. So when going to a gay bar, and finding a couple of guys attractive, start making out with girls. It's disheartening... it's like, where are all the gay/bi guys that I am attracted too, it gets annoying sometimes. The point of a gay bar, is to meet lgbt people, not straight people, like what. I want to be attracted to gay/bi dudes for once, not straight guys. That already happens in a normal setting, the last thing I need is for it to happen at a gay club. (This happened when I went with Victor too..)
My co-workers friend said something that bothered me, she said that they couldn't talk about Trump there, because everyone there are trump haters.
Well no shit sherlock! Trump is taking lgbt people's rights away, it's bad enough he's already banned Transgendered people from the military, and now he's trying to allow lgbt people to be fired for being LGBT! He's scum! Of course we hate him, and we have every right to! It makes no sense that they can be disappointed that lgbt people are trump haters! How can we like someone who hates us because we exist?!
I didn't dance all that much, because even though I like to dance, I had terrible social anxiety. I didn't want to look like a loser dancing by myself, and I was also tired, and didn't know where I could dance since there were so many people.
My crippling anxiety did not allow me to make any new friends, there were a couple of cute guys there, and you bet your bottom dollar I didn't talk to them! Not only do I never know what to say, but I wouldn't even know where to start when talking to someone! I'm pretty sure one of the guys there I have on linkedin. lol
I have recently gotten into Lizzo, and was overjoyed to hear two of her songs play! One of them included "Boyz", which is one my favorites, as well as Rebeccas.
As mentioned before, I was mostly a wallflower. But It was still a nice experience! It really gave me time to think about how I need to learn to be more social, and really get out more. This entire summer I've been hanging out with my friends more, and just generally doing things I wouldn't normally do. 5 years ago, I would have NEVER done this. I would not have gone to fire island, let alone all by myself. I've really changed, and I want to keep changing. I need to get out more, I need to make more friends, and maybe get myself a man, or a sugar daddy that can pay off my student loans, either way really...
An hour before the last ferry got there, I went to where my co-worker and her friends were staying. It was nice to get to know them better, they're all fun people.
A few of them were staying there for the night, and a few weren't. I ended up going on the ferry with them, instead of being all alone like before.
I saw two guys kissing on the boat, and instead of turning into a yaoi fangurl like I usually do. It just gave me a fuzzy feeling inside, they're being their real selves without any repercussions. It made me think, although I don't mind being single, I still want that to happen to me someday. It warms my cold gay heart.
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| My outfit for the night |
