Things I learned in 2015

There are many things that changed about me in 2015, someone has even mentioned to me that I have changed lot's this year!

This is a list of those changes, and further will be what I expect in the next year.

Changes

○ I fell very hard for someone, and found out what it's like to have a real crush on someone. To always have them on your mind, and just be so addicted to someone. I also learned what it was like to feel heartbreak, since I was really into them. I learned what it was like to have my heart stomped on, when I realized that he was straight, and was never into me. He was just an overly friendly guy, (who I later realized was kind of an ass) even though there were certain times that I thought he came off a bit flirty. (It was probably in my head)

○ With the help of my friend, I also learned how to move on.

○ I learned how to dance, because I wanted to impress that guy that I was into for two and a half months. Now, I enjoy dancing all of the time! Even when I'm not supposed to be dancing!

○ I got my drivers license and I got a car!

○ I went to my first Gay-city, and I experienced gay bars, men groping me and an underwear party!! (Wait, what!? That middle part is a story for another time.)

○ I've become more social and learning how to talk to people better.

Expectations

○ I expect to get out of my element more and go places with friends.

○ I plan to get a new job! Getting a new job will help me, I need a 9-5 job so I can actually go to sleep at a normal time and get a good routine going. My current job is very soul sucking and I feel like it stops me from doing my career goals.

(2018 me here, I ended up getting a new job in 2018, so it only took like three years. In 2019, I ended up getting another new job!)

Esmeralda, Esmeralda and.. well... Esmeralda!

In honor of my character Esmeralda, which you can see stories I've made. Here and the tags on this blog, Here.

This is a very simple blog post in appreciation to characters named Esmeralda! (And any similar variation. Sorry Ogsmelda, you're not included.)

Let's start off with the most popular Esmeralda, from Disney's Hunchback of Notre Dame.

Hunchback of Notre Dame

Esmeralda on the Disney Wiki

Name: Esmeralda

Series: Hunchback of Notre Dame (Movie), Kingdom Hearts (Game).

Title: Gypsy

The deuteragonist of Hunchback of Notre Dame.

Shards of Magic

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Name: Esmerelda

Series: Shards of Magic (Video Game)

Title: Healer

Esmerelda is a dragon with an affinity for wind; she is good friends with the Lancer character and helps allies by healing them.

Dungeon Link

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Name: Esmeralda

Series: Dungeon Link (Video Game)

Title: Knife Juggler

Weapon: Knives?

A knife juggler, who can copy another characters special attack as her own.

(Shards Of Magic & Dungeon Link are for IOS & Android.)

Suikoden

There is Esmeralda from Suikoden. Who was the inspiration to my own character with the same name!

Esmeralda on the Suikoden Wiki

Name: Esmeralda

Series: Suikoden (Video Game)

Title: Narcissist

Esmeralda, a narcissistic woman living in an inn, in the town of Antei. She joins the hero once you retrieve an opal for her.

She is the most useless character in the game, she does have a pretty dress though... 

When creating a Suikoden story with my friends, my friend gave the idea of a crazy version of Esmeralda. That was when my own Esmeralda was born, I liked her so much, that I started to brand her off as a separate person.

Saint October

Esmeralda on the Saint October Wiki

Name: Esmeralda

Series: Saint October (Anime)

Title: "Evil" Villain.. Chi Chi Chi!!

Weapon: Whip

Then, there is Esmeralda from the anime "Saint October". She is probably my favorite fictional Esmeralda, that is not my own character, she's just so strange and funny! A villain that was hired to fight the good guys; she's a total wacko who loves to say "Chi Chi Chi" instead of actually laughing. She also has a thing for the one priest guy, which can be really funny at times.

I know that the name field was pointless, but to be fair, the dragon Esmerelda's name is spelled differently!

Interesting Facts

1. Most characters with the name Esmeralda are associated with the colors Pink, Purple or Green.

2. Upon looking for other characters named Esmeralda, many anime characters named Esmeralda all have Blonde hair. Check this out & and this.

3. Esmeralda's seem to be very prim, proper, royalty or narcissistic, and weird.

4. Some tend to be performers, like Dancers or Circus Performers.

Now kids, remember this, because I'll be sending out a 1000 question quiz, about characters named Esmeralda, so don't forget! Make sure to study! 😜

Different Ways to spell Esmeralda!

1. Esmeralda
2. Esmerelda
3. Esmyrelda

4. Esmirelda

Why there must have been something in the air!

Tis the season to be jolly. Right? Right? Well, if you guessed no, then you're correct! Because boy, holiday season comes around, people are psychotic nut jobs that need to be inserted to the nearest mental institution!
Isn't it funny, people are out shopping for people that they care about. But then turn into a raging lunatic to someone they don't know that works in a store, and don't know their life story. Turning into the spawn of Satan, just for something stupid and nonsensical!

I have to say, the longer I work in retail, the more psychos I have the unfortunate ability of running into!

I've been working retail for 3 years and I have to say, today (12/2/2015) was one of the CRAZIEST days I've ever had in my entire life! It's so weird. It's like, when I was a cashier, I thought I had dealt with the crazies. Once I left to be out on the floor, everything was fine and dandy. But in recent months, it's as if people started drinking bottles, and bottles of crazy juice and just turned even more crazy than they already were!

So many crazy things happened today. The store had been so busy, that by the time I came to work at 2:30PM; NONE of the cashiers went on their breaks, and the store was opened since 9AM, it was just that crazy! One cashier called out, and another cashier left early because of a sick relative, so that was already two people down from the late shift.

One of the people that had opened was asked if she could stay, she said she had to eat, but she'd come back in three hours!

Let's call her Fantasia, more will be explained shortly...

I was on register, and while on register, I hear this screaming from a few registers down and I'm like what the fetch!?
From the distance, I could hear a clearly crazy lady yelling at the manager, and it was something about a coupon and it sounded really dumb.
After the the incident, I rang up a customer, and the manager came over to the little room next to the register I was on. I told her that I wanted to know what happened! The customer I had said I shouldn't be a yenta and then he got hit by his wife. But how am I being a gossip, if I just want to know why someone was being crazy? I actually didn't know what yenta meant, so I didn't care, but I looked it up when I got home. Apparently, it means to be a gossip. I do not think I was being a gossip at all! This manager was like another mother to me, and I wanted to know why a psychopath was screaming at her!
Later, I found out what happened. Apparently the manager was ringing up a lady who left her coupon in the car, so the manager said that she would just use a coupon she already had. So when the customer at a different register heard this, she got furious with the manager. She said that she works retail too, and that she deserves the same coupon the other lady got! But the coupon the lady got, was a coupon you get if you donate a coat! You can only get it for donating a coat, which is what the crazy lady did not do! So this psycho starts screaming at the manager, telling her that she deserves a coupon! The manager tries to explain she can only get the coupon if she donates a coat! The lady was yelling and screaming at the manager, just because she wanted a coupon that she had to actually earn!
Eventually, the manager let the lady have the coupon and the lady was like... Oh I'm so sorry I was such a bitch to you, I work retail too. I was thinking to myself, you work retail huh? Oh really, so you deal with people JUST LIKE YOU all the time and you have to act like an immature asshole to someone?! Yeah ok... Sure JAN.


Right after the manager had that customer, I had a customer who wanted to return like five items without the receipt. Unless you live under a rock, returning an item without a receipt is BAD. You need proof of purchase.

Plenty of people will take items off the floor, and attempt to "return them", without a receipt. This is one of the many ways thieves can get away with stealing from the store, but they have to get that one idiot cashier. 

When the lady came up to my register, she was telling me that she works at Walmart, and that they don't give her any hours, and how they have a bi-weekly pay. (I'm mentioning this, because it's an important plot-hole for later)
The store will only take returns without a receipt, if it's 50.00 or under. The return came up for 140.00, and I explained that we can't take the return. I ended up getting the manager over, and she explains that without the receipt, she cannot do a return. Alternatively, if she gave her phone number when she made the purchase, we could look it up through the number. If she paid with a credit card, we could also look at the cards purchase history as well.
The lady started flipping out! She's yelling at the manager, saying that this is racist That her boyfriend who was in the car, came in the store a few minutes ago, and returned something without the receipt, and he's a beautiful white man with green eyes. Then she says, what the manager makes in a week, is what she makes in a day. (Meanwhile, she just told me that she works at Walmart, and gets no hours.)

The manager says, "You know how much I make?".

So this crazy lady is arguing with the manager, sayings it's racist that we won't do the return without the receipt. I felt bad that the manager was getting yelled at by the psycho, so I jumped in with a strong voice and I said "Without proof of purchase, we cannot do a return!!". The crazy lady doesn't want to listen! Then a man comes over, who is believed to be her boyfriend, and guess what?

HES BLACK!!!!

Did she not just say her boyfriend was white, and had green eyes?!
Eventually the lady left, but she came back a few minutes later. The manager told me, that she is probably one of the people that steal from the store, and try to return items without the receipt.
The lady came back to my register and was like HERE!! Here's the receipt! I was looking at it and it was a return, not a purchase. It was apparently a return where the money was put on a credit card... Which means that if he didn't have a receipt, they were able to look up the purchase through a credit card. Where as for her return, she didn't have a receipt, she didn't add her phone number and she didn't pay with a card. Without the receipt, phone number, or credit card, there was no way to look up if she bought it from our store.

The manager explained, this is a return, and that there is nothing we could do with that receipt. The lady was fighting with the manager again. Eventually, she left.
But then she came back a few minutes later with things she was buying, she had like a giant wad of cash, and they were all 100's!!! Like, how does someone make that much at Walmart? There was something fishy going on for sure!
So the lady was on line, and I was near the registers doing something else and then the bitch screams "IS ANYONE GOING TO RING ME UP!" So I said loudly "I"M COMING!" Because I could not stand this evil bitch, and I wanted her face implanted into the concrete by this time.
I ring up her items quickly, trying to get her out of the store!! At the end, I asked her, would you like to leave a phone number so you don't have any problems? And she declines, and starts walking away before I could give 12 cents to her.
I'm just like... really?! Because not leaving your phone number is what got you into this mess in the first place!
I was just happy she was gone, and everyone that was on registers, were all talking about this crazy bitch. I told them, I really wanted to jump over the register and slap her! Like I was getting so angry, she was so nasty to the manager because she can't follow the rules!!

The thing that annoyed me, was that she kept being nasty to the manager, and would turn to me and call me Honey. Like BITCH! You're being a douche to someone that I know, and you're being nice to me!? EXCUSE ME!! But I can see your personality HO!! It's not pleasant!!!
It's like, no wonder Walmart doesn't give you hours! You're NUTS!!! You probably steal from them and you're probably a lousy worker, and suck at existing!

After the two nut jobs, I was doing various things around the store, and I saw Fantasia clock in and I was like, so you missed it! I told her about the two crazy customers we had.

The manager was really upset, she was saying how she's always doing favors for customers, and going the extra line, and this is how some of them treat her! She was really upset! I mean, this is a woman who bought a jacket for herself, and gave it to a customer so she could get a donation for the coat coupon. One time, Fantasia was going to buy a coat, but didn't have enough money to buy it. She bought the coat for the her! Or another time where she drove a disabled customer to their house, because she was having a hard time getting around!
She's such a great person, everyone likes her, and she's always buying things for people!

You know what they say, things come in threes! The last crazy customer was a person on the phone, the fun thing is, I have only gotten one rude customer on the phone! That is this time...
This lady calls up, and she asked if she could return a coat because the zipper broke. She purchased it two weeks ago. I asked her if it was used, she said her daughter wore it twice. I told her, unfortunately because it's been worn already, we cannot take it back, and no one will buy a coat from us if it's used. I told her, to check the manufacturer and they may be able to help, she told me it was a weird company.
She repeated herself a few times, I told her, once it's used you cannot return it! Then she told me that the zipper broke from the hood, so it was a coat that has an attachable hood and the hood would not go back on.
She told me that if she comes in a week, or two from now, and says to the cashier that it was not a used coat that she could get a refund for it? I said no, because she told me that she used it already!
So she tells me the same story again, if I return it without saying it's a used coat can I get my money back... I told her no you cannot because you just told me that you used it already! By this time, I noticed Fantasia was walking by, and she saw me yelling at this nut on the phone!
The lady asked to speak to a manager, so I gave the manager the phone and she was explaining the same thing I said to the woman. Apparently she wasn't getting it.
The manager eventually said that if she has the tag and the receipt, she'll allow for the return to be done. But that's when the lady told her that she didn't have the receipt anymore and the coat did not have a tag on it either, so the manager told her that she cannot do anything without the receipt and the price tag! The lady told the manager that she was a terrible manager, and that she was a an F*n piece of S#it and hung up!
Meanwhile, the manager was trying to help her!
If there's no proof of purchase, there's no price tag, and it's by a weird company, how would we even look it up in our systems? Customers fail to have any logic whatsoever! 

So a little while later, the manager was upset ,and I was walking with her to the back of the store and she was telling me how she feels like someone is trying to see if she'll quit today. Like as if someone was watching her and making these crazy people attack her! The weird thing is, the lady on the phone new the managers name!? She thought maybe it was someone playing a trick on her, but that was also when Fantasia came by.
She told us that she spoke with the crazy lady on the phone again, and this time she asked for the manager's name. Even though she said before the name of the manager. Fantasia told the customer the manager's first name, but not last name because she didn't think it was a good idea. The customer was yelling at her too, so she just hung up on the customer! XD
I said that we need to have fake names, and that I will be "Maya Jameson"! The manager said she'll be Bambi, and Fantasia said she'll be Clarissa! I said we already have a Clarissa, and we don't want to get someone in trouble by accident! Then she thought of the name Cynthia, I was like, we have someone with that name  too! She was like Damn, all the good names are taken! So she decided that she will be Fantasia! Her middle name!

I have to say, I've never seen so many psychopaths in one day at work! Usually there is just one a week! But you can tell the Holidays are "A Comin' ", because the customers become even bigger douche-bags than they were before!

Later on, I was doing stuff on the floor and then I was called up to the front.
I saw the manager on the floor with Fantasia, so something else was going on now! Apparently, Fantasia collapsed on the floor and was having terrible chest pains, she was clammy and had her hand over her chest!
She was ringing up a customer at the time and I took over ringing this guy up, the manager needed to call for help so she asked anyone for a phone, the customer let her have his phone. I handed it to the manager and I said, I am not good with phones.
While on the phone, the manager was making funny faces, because apparently the people on the other line were really stupid. XD
Eventually,  I rung up the customer and he came back when the purchase was done to make sure everything was okay.
Fantasia could walk, but she kept holding her chest and said she was in terrible pain!
The ambulance arrived, and she was taken away.

I was explaining to the manager, the last thing we need is for someone to die in the store! Because one of the guys that worked there last year, said he worked for a non-affiliated store, and was there for a year and a half, and three people died in the store while he was there!
One man OD'd in the bathroom, another lady just had a heart attack and died in a manager's arms....

Fortunately, nothing bad happened after that. There was a sense of calm starting to come to me, and I felt like nothing else could happen that day.

Keywords: Why retail is the worst job, Who are retail customers?, Why retail jobs are bad, Retail is hard, Retail Experience, Retail Examples, Retail Industry, Retail Sector, Retail Times, Retail Workers.

I love Bing! But no one else does...

I am one of those rare people who uses Bing as their search engine! Yes, I used to use Google, a loooooong time ago! But then I found out about Bing and I just thought it was so cool, and much better than Google. For starters, Google would post my old Kya Dark Lineage forum on the 3rd or 4th page when typing in Kya Dark Lineage, but Bing, would actually have it on the first page! That excited me, since it's not only one of my favorite games, but also a website/forum that I made myself that I wanted to get it out there. That was my initial reason for liking Bing, I was like hey, that's cool!
What I also liked about Bing, was it not only has an interactive front page with a changing image for each day, but it also tells you about certain things that are depicted in the image of the day.
I started to use Bing more, because Google just has this boring white background and a logo that doesn't really change that often (Except when there is a holiday, etc.). While Bing has an inventive image of the day, I started to like it more. I'm an artist, I love colors and interesting things, Google may have a colorful logo, but it's just so plain and boring. I like variety, I like vibrant and colorful things, and Bing leans more to it. This is what sold me to use Bing instead of Google.

Picture by me.
This is the kind of pictures you could see on Bing.

As I started to use Bing, I also noticed some cool things that Google does not have! Or at-least did not have when I used to use it!

 For starters, when you're looking up for a definition of a word, it will actually pop up on the search engine, as somewhat of a tip so you don't even have to go onto a website to find out what the word means. It even has someone saying the word, so if you don't know how to pronounce it, you'll find out how to. I just checked Google and it has the same thing, except it doesn't have the voice over.
The interesting thing is Google has a chart about what time period the word is used and Bing has other words that go with it, so they both uniquely have a different twist on it.

Bing and Google have the same type of translator, where you just put in the term and it automatically translates! I just learned how to say, "I speak no Spanish, suck on a turkey!". (Hablo no espanol chupar un pavo!)

But enough about that, eventually I moved to Bing, and I just find it to be a more attractive and physically beautiful search engine, while Google is just very plain and boring.

But what I dislike, is that there are so many Bing haters out there! I like Bing, other people don't, but I don't go around saying Google is stupid, or anything like that. But meanwhile, anytime someone mentions Bing online, it's to make fun of Bing. It's super rude!  Like why do people waste their time complaining about something they don't use? No one likes haters, and you’ll never be invited to any fun parties anymore! I just dislike all the hate it gets, and I actually get defensive with my friends when I say I like Bing, because I’m so used to people being assholes about it.
If someone doesn't like something, they should move on, and not be rude about it.

PS. Any Bing hate will be deleted. However, if you have a normal comment on why you use Google, that is fine.

EDIT (Dec 2017): I will be posting Bing hate below! Some people were like, I've never seen anyone hate on Bing... Well, there it is!

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So much wasted time

This is a follow up from the Don't block the Ventilation post.  I meant to post this in September 2015, but I forgot about it.
What better to start a new year by getting rid of the garbage, and starting a new year with a fresh face!

 Read the link above, if you haven't already! (Things will make more sense if you do!)

Almost a year later, after falling really hard for a guy who turned out to be straight. I'm doing great! I had gotten over my crush on that guy from work, thanks to my friend, who helped me get through it. The last few months he was there, everything went fine. I wasn't all up in his "grill" anymore, although to the point where I had not much to say to him, it's weird, when I was into him, I was always talking to him and asking him questions, but once I got over him, I just felt like I couldn't talk to him anymore. It wasn't the same, and I felt like I couldn't talk to him about the interests that we had in common. I felt he didn't want to talk about those things. But what annoys me, is that now that he is no longer working at my place of employment, he decided to add everyone on facebook! Which he once told me, he doesn't add co-workers on facebook. Which was a lie since he added managers and one co-worker (Whom he went to a party with). When I tried to add him, I was like oh, he's adding everyone now, that's cool. He denied me! You can tell if someone denies you on Facebook, if it says friend request sent, instead of pending, it means they either didn't accept or just didn't get it yet, but if it says add friend after you've already pressed the add friend button before. This means they declined your friend request! I was curious to see, because someone brought it up. (If you decline a few times, it goes away, I had a problem with this homophobe one time and found out that after declining so much, it just doesn't work anymore)  So there it was, add friend, not friend request sent..
It's really annoying, because I thought it all went fine! I had thought that we were good, so why not add me?? I mean, I had the biggest crush on this guy for two and a half months. I couldn't stop thinking about him, being around him made me feel amazing, and like no one could hurt me, because he was there. I had this guy on my mind 24/7, which had never happened to me before. I was literally not attracted to anyone else for the whole time that I was into him, I completely stopped all of my artwork and story ideas because I wanted to get to know him better. It was also weird, because a few of my horoscopes said my life was supposed to change for the better, right around the time he started, especially in the romantic sector.

I had never felt that way for anyone in my life before, so I thought it was supposed to mean something...

 
Right before I got over him, there were a few things that had happened. For starters, when I found out he was straight and had a girlfriend, I was depressed for 4 days to the point that I couldn't eat, and I was nauseous. After that, I started going through a healing process. Unfortunately, at work, one co-worker made a joke that he would be cute with a girl co-worker, and that hurt my feelings so much, that the drive home, I had tears in my eyes, and I didn't get any sleep that night either. That was also the night I found out that he had added someone on facebook, when he told me that he doesn't add co-workers.
After that, everything he would do would make me depressed. On a side note, it also bothered me that he referred to me as "Guy", like seriously that annoys me, I have a name you know!
Enough was enough, I was texting my one friend Donna, and after an hour and a half long talk. She helped me get over him once and for all, It was for real this time too. One of the problems I had, was that "You never know" attitude. I've heard of stories where a straight guy falls for a man, so I just kept hoping that would happen. Another problem was, I thought I saw signs, one time I went to a fair and a guy there had him on facebook. How crazy is it to bump into a random person that is friends with your crush?!
After that, I went through a bit of a mourning process, but I had also risen like a phoenix. I needed something to draw my attention away from him, so I started a new save of my favorite video game series, Suikoden and started with the fourth installment (Which is the earliest in the timeline). Playing my favorite series, really did help me with the grieving and getting over process and I needed my mind to think about something else for a change.
After that, everything was normal again. I wasn't into him anymore, I wasn't heartbroken, I was normal again.
I didn't really talk to him much afterwards, I just felt like I had nothing to say to him, it's like he became uninteresting. That, and I felt like he wanted to talk about normal things like drinking, or going to a bar, not anime and video games.
Even though I didn't have a crush on him anymore, and I didn't talk to him much. I still wanted to be his friend! I like having friends! I didn't have any straight guy friends either, it would have been nice!
Ironically enough, I ended up hitting it off with another guy from work, who is now a good friend of mine and my first real straight guy friend in real life. Like they say, when one door closes, another opens.
After I got over him, I noticed he would be kind of a jerk, and I wasn't sure if he was being a jerk, because sometimes I'll get offended by jokes. But I was right, someone else had mentioned he can be a jerk, and another person even said he was arrogant! He acts all high and mighty, but then doesn't know what the heck he's doing!
He also had a tendency to flirt with all of the girls at work, even though he has a girlfriend. Some people think it's ok, others do not. But he was mean to my one friend, just because she said hi to him once when he was with his girlfriend, he would also go out of his way and call my other friend gorgeous.

This is a drawing I made of him, he's wearing a holiday outfit. Back in 2017, I drew the two guys I liked from 2015-2017. Also added this guy, who liked me in the drawing.

It just bugs me, I was chasing after him for two, and a half months! I completely stopped all of my career projects to chase after this guy, because I was like addicted to him, like he was some kind of drug. In the end, I wasted two and a half months over nothing, and then all I wanted to do was be his friend and he doesn't even want to be my friend! Like really?! I had a dream about him, where he was my friend!! Yet in real life it doesn't happen! It's amazing to me, how much you can like someone and then one thing happens, and you start to dislike them! I just wish I could get the time back, that I wasted on him, I also want to know how he knows this guy I went to college with!
Not to mention, I wasted my time over him, when there was another person I could have talked to, but because I was so into him, I had no desire to. So not only did I waste my time chasing him, but he also screwed me for other opportunities, because I had my head in the clouds.

I kind of wish he knew how I felt about everything, how much I liked him, and how much I dislike him now because he was a jerk the whole time! My friends have been very supportive, they were there for me when I was into him, and there for me now that I'm not into him.. in fact one of them said they hope he rots. XD
My one friend Victor isn't going to let this go, he'll always remind me of the time I was crushing on this asshole. lmao
I'm not going to let him get the better of me, I'm moving on to bigger and better things now!
I guess the only good thing that came out of it was, I know what it's like to fall for someone, I know what heartbreak feels like.. and now I know how to dance! The latter is the most fun!

It's crazy to think,

To you, they're the whole world. You could have a crush on someone, and they'll be on your mind constantly. But the sad truth is, you don't even exist in their world, you're nothing but a speck to them. You never cross their mind at all.

Here's a timeline...

March 2015 - I met the guy and become infatuated with him.
April 2015 - I found out he was straight, had a girlfriend, was depressed for a while and still chasing after him. This is because I was experiencing "Limerence", a chemical reaction in the brain, that makes you "head over heels in love" with someone else.
May 2015 - I was into him until my friend had a conversation with me on the 20th of May.
June 2015 - Became friends with someone else from work.
July-August 2015 - My life turns normal again, and I barely spoke to him.
September 2015 - He disappears from work, went to my first gay village, went to a nudist hotel for men only, saw drag queen shows and went to an underwear party! (This was the thing I needed to get over this guy)
October 2015 - Tried adding him on facebook, didn't work, BY FELICIA!

One or two of my friends were worried I was upset and actually, I'm not. I'm just annoyed, because I wasted my time on this idiot way back when. You know what, after this blog post.. I don't care about him anymore! Time to move one and over, more interesting people to meet in my life than dumpster juice anyways!

I wanted to make this post, to not only show others a story that happened to me in the past year. But I also want this to be a guide, I want people to allow themselves to put on a logical hat. If you have a crush, you have to be careful, make sure they like your gender, make sure they're into you. Because what you might think is flirting, may not be flirting at all! You could waste lot's of time on someone, just for it to never even happen! This person could turn out to be a jerk, just like it did for me. Last but not least, never stop anything you're doing for someone you don't know likes you or not! I stopped making stories and drawing and all that jazz to chase after him, but meanwhile, that's 2 and a half months of not being productive, when the arts are my career goal!

Follow the rest of my Crush Arc

• Don't Block The VENTilation • So Much Wasted Time • Ding Dong Doozy Of A Day! •