First client storytime

 So when I first started working on networking for my freelancing business, I had told one lady that I was a social media manager. I even showed her a video I made for a friend of mine's business.

She says she'll call me, so she does. 

When I get on the phone, she asks me if I could make a website where people can submit their own posts. (Everyone at the event didn't seem to want social media help, just web design) I had only ever made a website for myself, and figured, why not add that to my list of tricks! She asked me how long it takes to maake a website, I said it took me 4 hours to make my friends website and I was charging 40 an hour. 
Keep in mind, I was expecting to talk about social media stuff, so I really didn't have proper answers for her questions, because I never talked to her about websites in person, so I don't know how she came to this conclusion that I could make a website. 

She specifically told me money was not an issue. 

So 4 weeks later, this website really kicked my butt because it was very specific on how it needed to work, there were tons and tons of problems. I wound up putting in 25 hours, which totaled $1000.

I'd like to add that she took forever to get back to me! It would take like 2 days for her to text me back, so I mirrored her and did the same. lol

When we get to pricing, i tell her that it's $1000 and she flips out on me saying she thought it was only going to take 4 hours, I told her I never made a website like this before so I didn't know it would take that long. (Also if it was going to take 4 hours it wouldn't have been a month long process) She asked why I never brought it up, I just said it never occurred to me. But realistically, she told me price wasn't an issue, so that's why I never brought it up. 
I was able to get her to agree on $500.

I told my friend about this and she was livid, she said that websites go for $1000 to $3000, so if anything I was giving her a huge discount. 

But my thing is, she told me price wasn't an issue and she also assumed I could make a website, which I don't know how you get that from social media manager? She's in real estate, so I definitely didn't think money would be such an issue.

Can you believe this Free Networking Event wasn't actually free?! (Storytime)

A few years ago, I went to a "Free" networking event that wasn't as free as I thought! 

At the time, I was working for a very toxic job, where everyone was screaming at each other, they couldn't pay us on time and the owner was caught doing drugs in his office! That's a story for another time! But because of this job, I found out about this Networking event because the jobs linkedin had this guy as a friend and he had messaged the company about his networking night. 

So I was like, ok, I'll go! 

The networking event is a monthly free event that the host, provides. He has other events that are like dinners and you have to pay for this, so this was the only one that was free.

I had gone a total of 4 times, and after the second time, I went on his website to sign up for his directory listing which shows local businesses on his website. Before signing up, I looked to see if you have to pay for it and I couldn't find anything about that.

So then I signed up, but I didn't finish the application because I searched the website again and found out that in order to sign up you had to pay a YEARLY fee of $300 dollars! I can't afford that, so I just closed out of the website.

Keep in mind, the price for having a listing was hidden, like it's not out in the open. You have your pages, like it says photos, events, videos, info, etcetera and one of the tabs is a phone number. You have to click on that tab and then it brings you to a page that just says for "Sponsor info click here" and then it brings you to another page that tells you how much it is for the listing. Which is $300. To me that's a bit strange that the price isn't upfront and that you really have to "dig" to find it.

A few days later, he starts calling me and he always called me when I was at work. Because of that, I didn't want to answer him when I was there because the job was very strict so I was afraid I'd get into trouble if I left to take a call. Keep in mind, It didn't occur to me that I could call him after hours, so I never did. 

He had also added me on Facebook and sent me a message as well, and for some reason, my brain registered his message as an automated message as the message as an ad as it said things like, promote, connect, Special, Sign up now and get 2 months free" , so I never answered him there either as I figured it was an automated message. But he kept calling to finish the application. Looking back at it, like obviously I'm not interested so like leave me alone?

Fast forward to the third time I go to his event, he's at the door and looks furious. He gave me an attitude and was like, why didn't you answer my calls. I don't remember my response, but afterwards he said that next time he calls me, that I BETTER Answer him. I thought to myself, he's not my boss, he's not my dad, he's no one important to me, like he has a lot of nerve to be so nasty and then demand a phone call. No one in life owes you anything, you know? 

So I go in and I had invited two of my friends, and I told both of them what happened. They were supportive of me and they told him how I had invited them there. He always does a speech and he had mentioned that I had brought people in. Throughout that day, I was paranoid that he was going to get angry with me again. But nothing happened.

After that, I had no desire to go back since he was so nasty to me. But 2-3 months later, I decided to go back as I had just been laid off from the toxic job. So I went and everything was fine, but at the end, he was like, I really want you to be a sponsor, I'm sure we can work things out. After he walked away, I left, I was like nope. Like even though he was nice to me this time, I still remember when he was so nasty to me, and it's not like I have money to afford that I was just laid off! After that, I never went back and have no desire to.

Now looking back at the Networking event, I realized that I started seeing the same faces and what struck me as odd was the familiar faces were all Sponsors who paid the price. Whereas everyone else that I had met, I never saw again. So the only returning people were the sponsors, which makes me believe that if you want to keep on going, he starts to pressure you into becoming a sponsor and that's how he makes his money from the event being "Free". 

In some ways I kind of wonder if it's a pyramid scheme, because he starts to bug you about being a sponsor until you join and then you recruit others to do the same and you keep paying him for his services that may or may not work. I'm pretty sure he even said that not everyone will meet someone that they can do business with. He has like 500 Sponsors, that's 149,700 a YEAR!!!! Just from Sponsors!! The only person I actually met at this networking event that was of value is this girl I met the first time, who turned into a great friend of mine. 

Also, one of the times he had made a comment that he prefers women and will always talk to them first. Something along the lines, which makes me believe that if I was a woman, he would have been much nicer to me. But this is just a theory.

It's funny because his website is very outdated, not only is the price for sponsors hidden, but it also looks like it hasn't been updated since 2003. 

Sticker Printing Companies & Much More!

 After a certain Sticker Company decided to get political, people have decided to not do business with them anymore. So here is a list of Sticker Companies and other printing companies that do other things. 
A few companies are left out intentionally, including one that I worked for in 2021, that screwed me over. I'll add an edit date at the bottom so ya'll know if new additions have been added!

Business Cards 

- Staples 
- VistaPrint

Charms - Acrylic - Metal - Wooden

• Melody Charms
• Vograce
• Wizard Pins
• Zap Creative 
• Zugmonster 

Clothing 

- Contagious Graphics 
- Merchology - 
- Printful -
- Printify -
- VistaPrint - 

Packaging - Eco Friendly

- Better Packaging Co
- Eco Enclose 
- No Issue Co 
- Sticker Gizmo 

Packaging 

 - VistaPrint - 

Party Printing - -Coasters - Cups - Napkins etc... 

- Templi - This company is a competitor to a company I used to work for that burned me, so I'd much rather do business with these guys!

Pins

• Melody Charms
• Vograce
• Wizard Pins
• Zap Creative 
• Zugmonster 

Promotional Marketing Printing Companies 

- 4 All Promos 
- 4Imprint -
- Arts Cow - 
- Collage - 
- Geiger - 
- Handshake - 
- Idea Stage 
- Makeship -
- Merchology - 
- Moller -
- National Pen -
- Print Work
- Promo Shop inc - 
- Promotique - 
- Printful - 
- Shureprint - 
- Shutterfly -
- Sticker Gizmo 
- Staples Promo - 
- Templi - 
- Quality Logo Products -
- VistaPrint - 

Printing Companies that ship for you

CafePress -
Cow Cow - Somehow related to Arts Cow
Gelato -
Printer Studio -
Printify -
RedBubble -
Society 6 -
Threadless -
Zazzle -

Sticker Printing Companies

- Contagious Graphics 
- Custom Stickers 
- Machine Studio - My personal Favorite
- Melody Charms
- Michaela K Creations -
- Packs Do -
- Print Place
- Rockin Monkey 
- Split Arrow Prints
- Sticker App -
- Sticker Blitz
- Sticker Giant 
- Sticker Gizmo - Eco Friendly
- Sticker Junkie
- Sticker Ninja 
- Sticker Print Go 
- Sticker Wolf 
- Sticker Wize 
- The Sticky Brand 
- Uprinting 
- Vograce
- Zap Creative 
- Zugmonster 

Tarot / Oracle Card Printing 

• Printer Studio -
• Aura Print -
• Make Playing Cards  -
• QP Marketing Network -
• Vograce

You have to call to inquire - This is a heads up for people like me, who hate talking on the phone!! lol
• Ace Lion -
• Kingstar -
• Print Ninja -
• WJ Playing Cards -

Last Edited 5-28-2025

I can't believe this happened to John Paul and Carter on Hollyoaks!

I started watching a show called Hollyoaks, due to a clip I saw on youtube of the two characters, John Paul and Carter. Kissing.

The storyline follows Carter, who is a newcomer and a very religious man who thinks being gay is bad. When he meets John Paul, he starts to have feelings for him and admits he's actually gay, but is trying not to let his "Sinful" urges get in the way.

As the story progresses, we see Carter being vulnerable and there are moments where he really wants to be with John Paul and where he's like, is being gay really a bad thing?

But then a few other characters get into the mix and corrupt him into being "Straight" again, and while there are instances where he gets vulnerable with his feelings for John Paul. He eventually starts going haywire, and tells a kid he isn't gay and he needs to be straight, gets transphobic towards one of the trans characters and even crashing a pride parade to be homophobic. 

Like the show went from Carter slowly coming to terms with his sexuality, to a complete 180, where he reverts back to who he was before, but 10 times worse and becomes super hateful.

The storyline ends with Carter KIDNAPPING John Paul, where he gives him a baptism and thinks he drowned him. Although John Paul survives, Carter was happy he didn't die. Carter gets arrested and that's that.

Opinions:

What upsets me so much, is these characters had so much chemistry. They were super cute together, (The actors aren't bad looking either). The kiss scenes were cute as well. One thing that annoyed me about the show Eastenders, with the gay couple, Ben and Callum. Their kisses were super weird. But then seeing John Paul and Carter kiss, was like magic, it was super cute and sensual. 

The way the storyline was going, they made it seem like they WERE going to get together and Carter would accept who he was. But then Carter pulls a 180. Like even Carter's on screen daughter, was calling them her dads on instagram, which made me believe they knew something we didn't know. 

There's a few scenes I'd like to bring up. One scene, involves John Paul going to the hospital to see his mom who was sick. Carter, being the gentleman that he is, went to go visit and support JP. Then later on, John Paul goes over to Carters house to thank him and they have a very intimate moment, before another character ruins it lol.

Like, the show was putting them together, it was putting them in real life couple situations and then they just SNATCHED it right out of our hands and made Carter a madman.

Continuity Error?

When John Paul and Carter have their first kiss, Carter says he doesn't like how men have treated John Paul and how JP needs someone who will love and support him. They end up kissing. This in turn, also makes it seem like Carter was supposed to be John Pauls happily ever after, because you had this guy who is secretly crazy about JP and wants to treat him well.

But their last scene together is him literally drowning John Paul.

I'm so upset about this, ya'll have no idea/

I got Scammed on Allie Express!

 If you use Allie Express, please do NOT buy from this seller! " FXFX Store"

They are scammers!!! 

They deliberately put in my town name, but not the address, so that the post office wouldn't know what to do with it. When looking at the tracking #, it says post office DESTROYED THE PACKAGE!!!! 

I tried contacting the seller, I got an automated response saying it was on it's way...

I asked Allie express about it, and even though I have proof saying the seller didn't put in the proper address, and that the post office disposed of the package. They would not give me a refund, which is utter BS!

Upon looking at reviews for this particular seller, it looks like other people have had the same issue. In some cases, people obtained an empty package!! This seller is a scammer and Allie express should be ashamed of themselves!!! 

Honestly, I'm so done with Allie express, I think I'll just stick with Temu, who have been very good to me with missing packages and broken items.

Attached is a picture of me not receiving the item!!! As well as receipts that Allie Express wants to put a blind eye on. 

This is a picture of me not having the item.

How I like to make my Salads

 

Spinach Leaves, Raspberries, Cheddar Cheese, Blueberries, Tomatoes and Red/Yellow Peppers.

Hey Ya'll, 

I wanted show you how I make a salad, as it might be a bit different than what other people do. Since I'm not a Food or Recipe blogger, so I won't be adding random dribble about how my mother's, brother's sister's, ex-wife's, cousin, got lost in the woods in the middle of a snowstorm and found some weird mushroom that inspired them to make a pineapple pizza. 

When I make salads, I put in my main ingredients and then if I have leftovers of whatever foods, I also put them in there as well. 

I'm going to be separating the items into different categories. 

Main - This is what makes the salad the salad
Cheeses 
Fruit - 
Vegetables 
Meats 
Seasonings 
Dressing 
Seeds 

Main - Basically this is the main part of the salad, whether it's lettuce, spinach leaves, or if you want to just make a pasta salad instead. (Or just all of the above)

Spinach leaves- Are generally healthier than just ordinary lettuce, so I prefer to go with this. Personally, for me, they have a time limit. Once they get soggy and wet, they taste gross to me, and I cannot have them.

You can get this in the aisles with lettuce.

Pasta - (Whole grain is healthier just so you know and better in controlling blood sugar)
Use the small kind like macaroni or the springs for salads.

Cheeses

Feta cheese (Already crumbled)

Cheddar Cheese - Sometimes I cut up some block cheddar cheese and throw it in there. 

Mozzarella Cheese - I'm very versatile with my Mozzarella cheese, If I have the block cheese from the grocery store that you cut up. But for salads I love using the Fresh Mozzarella cheese, it comes in a oval like shape, it'll be very wet and it comes pre-sliced. If worst comes to worst, I use 1-2 String Sheeses and cut it up into little bite sizes and throw it in.

Shredded Mozzarella and or Cheddar (or whichever cheese you like)

Fruit - Cut up whatever fruit you like.

For me, I always buy my berries, it's a must have in my refrigerator! Berries also have the lowest sugar, which is great for diabetic or pre-diabetics. 

Banana

Blackberries

Blueberries

Raspberries

Strawberries

Vegetables - Here are my must have vegetables.

Carrots - Shop Rite sells carrot chips or Shredded, which I think is the easiest form of Carrot to have for a salad.

Peppers - Green|Yellow|Red.  Red is the healthiest.

Tomatoes - I know it’s a fruit! I like either cut up tomatoes or the grape tomatoes. Like spinach, it tastes terrible if you don't eat it right away, once it starts getting squishy, that means it's no good anymore. 

Meats

Chicken - Any kind and all kind, you could even get chicken nuggets from the grocery store and tear them into pieces and throw them in.

Pepperoni - Slices already made from the grocery store are perfect for salads. The consumption amount is about 16 slices. 

Steak - Steak can be hard to chew so I recommend cutting them in thin slices.

Seasonings

Garlic or Onion Salt/powder

Crushed Red Pepper Flakes - I love Crushed Red Pepper for some spice. Just don't put on too much, you don't want to set your mouth on fire! 

Parsley

Rosemary

Dressing

I like good seasonings Italian dressing, it’s healthier than the bottled stuff you get at the store. You just need oil and vinegar to make it. Some stores have the Good Seasonings that come with a Glass Dressings bottle to mix and make the dressing! These days I make a knock off version of the Good Seasons Italian dressing, which is much cheaper!

Good Seasons - Italian Dressing

Seeds - Are really healthy and packed with all sorts of good stuff.

Chia Seeds 
Sunflower Seeds

Angel Number Meanings

111 - Manifest

Be careful of your surroundings as consistent thoughts are manifesting quickly into reality. 

222 -Take a Balanced, Harmonious and Peaceful stance in all areas of your life.

Keep faith and stand strong. 

333 - Growth, Creativity & Joy

Your ascended masters are near you and have responded to your prayers.

444 - Follow your Intuition and Inner-Wisdom

Continue your path as your drive and determination will lead to Success & Fullfillment.

555 - Change 

Significant and necessary changes are coming to re-align you with your life path.

666 - Use Creativity Analytics to bring more Positive Outcomes

Be aware to balance your thoughts, a positive vibration brings positive results. 

777 - Spiritual Growth

You are here to spiritually evolve and are in alignment and on the right path. 

888 - Abundance

Is a sign that Achievement and Abundance is yours and you're on the right track to bring yourself into it.

999 - Completion 

Your current situation is coming to an end so new opportunities can arise. 

I'm the physical embodiment of a Japanese Highschool Girl Part 5

 Well, Well, Well, if it isn't part three of this ridiculous saga of me breaking my own heart by crushing on guys I have no idea if they're single and into dudes.

We're here YET AGAIN!!!

Sometimes I wish I was asexual, I could just enjoy life instead of getting my heart broken into pieces. 

So it all started in June 2022, my friend Chey and I went to a Crystal store. As we were about to leave, I saw this absolutely stunning ginger wearing a mask. I was like, whoooo is thattt? We kept eying each other, and we were both wearing masks!!!

I did some Instagram stalking for the company and found out who this guy was and saw he hosts events there. So me and my good judy Donna, started going to his events! At first, it wasn't working out and I thought, oh it's just some cute guy, a dime a dozen. 

But then, I went to a psychic fair and just wanted to go to the booths. The second I got out of my car, the psychics face was in my head. This meant I needed to see her! So I saw the psychic who was telling me things I didn't tell her. She said that this guy is my "twin flame" and I need to pursue him and how I made an impact on him without knowing it. 

This time, it was very obvious that he is LGBT.

Here's where things get weird.... AGAIN....

Like the second Ace, he's a ginger and like Scotty, he's about 8 years younger than me. 

1. We have the same birthday, December 20th.
2. We both have a red phone and hate the cold weather.
3. We're both artists who are also into spiritual stuff.
4. He is more of a listener and isn't great at disengaging a conversation. 

When I say, there were so many signs this was supposed to happen, I mean it! From seeing heart shaped clouds in the sky when thinking about him, to doing pick a card tarot readings that were all saying the same thing! I just kept seeing signs.

I figured since I was starting to get on the right path, both spirtually and career wise, I thought that for once things were going to go right and that it was just a matter of time!

Unfortunately, that didn't last.

It took a while, but me and Donna were getting him out of his shell. He was clearly very guarded, but he started getting comfortable around us.

One day, we both went in for his session and I got this strange vibe. Something was off.

So the last time I saw him, I gave him a present because I felt he needed it. I can tell when a crystal is calling someone so I got him one. I also put in a Saggitarius bracelet. So that day, he gave me the Saggitarius bracelet back and said thank you for giving it to him, but he doesn't wear bracelets. I got a weird vibe from the interaction as well. 

At some point, he mentioned he had a partner and I was distraught. I was shocked! Like this didn't make any sense, the signs were all saying it would be happening eventually.

I was stunned, just stunned. Now I'm confused!!

It's like why does this happen, I always end up liking a guy and he always ends up being straight and the one time I like someone who's queer and he's unavailable!! I don't get it!!! 

So here's the thing, that day, me and Chey went to the crystal store and saw him. We were supposed to go somewhere completely different but Donna told us go to this store. If it wasn't for us going there on that day, we wouldn't have seen the ginger and we probably wouldn't have gone back to this place!

I thought that this was some sort of divine timing, like I wasn't looking for a boyfriend and then bam, who is this?! We weren't even going to go there and yet we ended up there and if it wasn't for knowing Chey, I probably would have just gone there one time with Donna the previous week and that's it, never again. After going there, we found another Crystal store that has more events so we kind of gravitate towards that one now.

1. Everyone always has a 2 or 8 year difference from me. 

Why do the guys I have crushes on, end up being very Similar, but different from each other?

I'm noticing something strange about the guys I've had crushes on, some had weird similarities. But at the same time, they've also been very different circumstances.

Obviously for privacy, I will be changing the names of the people involved. 

 

Something interesting I've noticed is, every guy I've had a crush on was either 2 years younger or older than me, or 8 years younger or older than me.

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2015: "Ace 1" The first big crush I had was in 2015, a security guard that I worked with

. Who I didn't find attractive until I shook his hand. Afterwards, I felt like I was high all the time. I couldn't stop thinking about him, when I was around him, I felt like nothing could go wrong! It was the wildest thing I ever experienced. When I found out he was straight and had a girlfriend. I WAS DEVESTATED, I was literally depressed for 4 days and I really do think I was experiencing heartbreak, despite ever being with him.

It took me almost two years to fully get over him. I KNEW HIM FOR TWO MONTHS!!

Notable Features: He was 2 years younger than me, bald by choice, had nice muscles, and a Criminal Justice Major. Has the same name as other guys I unintentionally ended up liking later on, who had similar descriptions.

2017: "Scotty" - Was this quiet guy I worked with who I had a crush on just because I didn't have a crush on anyone, and I for some reason felt the need to crush on someone. I just thought he was cute, but the more I worked with him, the more I developed a crush on him. 

Eventually, I realized he reminded me of my brother, and I pretty much lost all attraction to him. lol

Notable Features: He was about 8 years younger than me, my gawd, am I a cougar?! lol (I was 27 and he was 19)

2018: "Second Ace",  This guy worked in another department of a job I had. I believe I had passed by him before, but I didn't "notice" him until the company had a party, where I got to see him close up. I never did get to talk to him, but for some reason, he was ALWAYS on my mind. He made me feel similar to the first Ace, where I had this feeling of being high when I saw him. 

In this case, I am 95% sure he was actually gay. Also, he was a ginger, and most male gingers are gay. I don't make the rules, I just abide by them.

Notable Features: He was approximately, also two years younger than me, a CJ major and the first Ginger guy I had a crush on.

2019: "Davey", who to this day, is the only guy I had a crush on that I became friends with. I knew he was straight from the beginning, but I still developed a crush on him. It was hard not to, he is literally the sweetest guy I've ever met, he's such a good person that it's hard not to, he also has such a cute laugh. I will say, there were certain things that did make me question his sexuality, so some of it was, wait, is he really straight?! One of the ladies I worked with even said there's something else there. But it wasn't for me to discover anyways.

My crush on him did fluctuate and it did go away at times. Everyone likes the bad boys, but I like the sweet guys. Honestly, I think I really was falling for him. If this man came out of no where, got on one knee and proposed to me, I'd say yes.

Nearing the end of working with him, I started to get high off working with him. He just made me feel so good! One time, I asked if he wanted to hang out, and he rejected me. Similarly to the first Ace, I got a bit of heartbreak because of it. 

Shortly after, I got a new job. We're basically pen pals since he doesn't want to hang out, but I also understand that he has a kid.

Notable Features: He happens to be two years older than me, certain things about him reminded me of the first Ace.

2019: Ace 3, who I worked with alongside Davey. He was the son of the owner of the job I worked for. Probably the sexiest man I've ever met in my entire life! Oh my god, that man could have his way with me any day of the week! He is however, a complete idiot and a jerk off. lol

Notable Features: Also named Ace, Bald, and had nice muscles like the first Ace. His department was the Drug and Alcohol Testing department, so in a way, he was the Criminal Justtice section like the previous two Aces. (He was about 8 years older than me, I was 29-31, he was 37-40)

2021: Rowan: Was another guy I worked with, I didn't really pay any attention to him until he shaved his really ugly beard off. It made me think about that Spongebob meme, where Squidward goes "OH NO!!! HES HOTT!!!!".

I rarely saw him, but there were a few times where I daydreamed about him and was able to feel this feeling of "High", that some of the previous guys made me feel.

After that, I was like helllloooo sirrrr. He worked the warehouse, but always came in with a designer jacket and button up shirt. He cleaned up super nice! He was also a sweetheart too, he would bake cupcakes for everyone in the office and other similar things. He had such an adorable laugh as well.

Notable Features: He was about 2 years younger than me as well!

2022: Gael - This guy that I made eye contact with at a store, I felt like it was mutual and I knew he worked there so I looked up the store's instagram and found out he does classes there. So I signed me and my friend up! lol

The week before his class, I couldn't stop thinking about him. It was wild. But when the class finally came, I was confused, I was like wait, am I attracted to him? He is absolutely adorable and very clearly gay! lol

Notable Features: He's a Ginger like the second Ace and the same age as Scotty.

2022: Basil - I started a new job and everyone is old and then you have this BEEFCAKE who wears tight clothing and has muscles for daysssss. Sweet baby jesus, is he delicious!

Notable Features:Clearly much older than me, very similar vibes to the third Ace. Who was HOTTTTTTT. Except this guy seems like a decent dude. Also, they both have ameezing rump roasts, if you get what I meannnn ;)

• For the First two Aces, Scotty, Davey, Rowan and Gael, I was not attracted to them right away. My attraction to them grew over time.

The only ones I thought were hot off the bat was Ace 3 and Basil

The Crush Saga! - I truly am the Physical Embodiment of a High School Girl

 Here's me being a hopeless romantic idiot, who falls for every cute guy that just so happens to be straight or with someone. My dumb ass can't seem to not have a crush on them before I know if they're Single and LGBT. 

I swear I break my own heart sometimes. These boys broke my heart by just existing and they didn't even do nothin'! 

Everytime I think I've met "The One", they're either named Ace, or a Ginger.

I'm the Physical Embodiment of a Japanese Highschool girl 

Prologue:

Don't block the VENTilation
So Much Wasted Time

Part 1
Part 2
What a Ding Dong Doozy of a Day!
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5
Part 6
Part 7
Part 8 

Epilogue 

Why do the guys I have crushes on, end up being very Similar, but also very different?

Why I don't like Christmas

I can't say I'm a big fan of Christmas

Here are my reasons why I don't care for Christmas

1. I worked Retail!

Working in retail Full-Time for 5 years and Part-Time for 3, made me really hate the holiday!

People are 10x nastier, messier, rude and ridiculous during the Holidays. What is supposed to be such a "Wonderful time of the year", becomes such a "Nightmare time of the year". People love to show how awful they are to Customer Service Employees, especially during the holidays.

I was rarely ever cursed out during the normal season, but around the holidays, I was never shy of being cursed out just for telling people the carts didn't go outside, or called stupid just because I asked the lady if she still wanted the item, even though it was a bit different in size. (Usually people buy the item because they like it so much, even if it's a little bigger.)

 

For my retail escapades, check out my Retail Stories tag. 

https://hotspotsportal.blogspot.com/search/label/Retail%20Stories

2. My birthday is near Christmas - This means that when I ask people to go out with me for my birthday, they can't make it because....

A. Their family is in town and they can't hang out.

B. They work retail and are working.

C. They're broke because they spent money for Christmas presents and don't have money left to do anything. 

 

It's safe to say I don't usually get to hang out with friends for my birthday! Which makes it such a drag!

3. It's all about the presents

• Christmas, like many holidays, is supposed to be about Family. But people seem to like it just because of the presents, which seems rather greedy and superficial.  

• Look at how crazy people get just because they want a gift for their dearly beloved and how people have LITERALLY DIED trying to shop on Black Friday.

At-least with Halloween, it's just about having fun and dressing up! etc..

 

4. It Over-Shadows other holidays

• It drives me nuts when people gloat about how "amazing" Christmas is and how they start playing Christmas themed music in August. They get so into Christmas, that they don't care about other Holidays like Halloween (Clearly, the best Holiday of all time!) Obviously it's fine to like a holiday, but talking about it so often just comes off weird and annoying. Like I don't want to think about Christmas, or cold weather, when I'm enjoying a nice warm day in August.

5. It makes me feel bad about Thanksgiving! 

• Thanksgiving gets the short end of the stick! Once Halloween is over, it's all of a sudden, Christmas season, which is super rude.

6. I'm just over it

• You know when you've watched a TV show for the 80th time, or you have 1000 hours in a Video Game and you're just bored of it? That's how I feel about Christmas. I'm just over it, I've done it 31 years and I'm good, like give me something new and different!

 

Why Patriotism is weird

Let's get this out of the way,

A country is just a place you live in, like that's all it really is...

I don't get why people are super patriotic. It's like if you found an island and started praying that you love this island so much and everyone that has a problem with your island is an enemy, it's just a weird mindset to get into!

It's just a bunch of land, like that's all it is!

I also don't get people who can like a country, but have so many issues with it's laws.  It's rather counterproductive, like if you have a problem with laws, then you can't love the country!

My take 

People who are very patriotic (or religious for that matter) to the point that the only conversation they can hold is about their country (& or Religion), are boring and have no personality. (That's on periodt.) I've met and worked with plenty of people like this and they were so boring! (And rude for that matter) They had nothing interesting to talk about and were very nasty and hateful in general. No one liked them because they were such an awful person.

Also

America in particular, should not have "In God We Trust", or having god in the pledge of allegiance, since the country was literally founded on "Freedom of Religion", which many Americans have seem to forgotten! 

Quick Note: Maybe it's just me, but the Pledge of Allegiance kind of comes off a bit cult-y to me.

I'd personally love to move out of America, but because I don't have any money (Because of how America is with the rich getting richer), I can't. Not to mention, I'd preferably like to move somewhere warm, that is also Gay friendly. Unfortunately, I don't know if there is a place like that outside of California. 

Is it racist to be Patriotic?

Well no, that's just silly. The reason why so many people associate being Patriotic with Racism, is because many EXTREMELY Patriotic people are racist and that's where the association comes from. Like if so many patriotic people weren't racist, then the connotation Patriotic people being Racist, wouldn't exist. 

Anyways..

From my experience, there seems to be a very specific mindset for people who just LOVE their country soooo much! (Rude and has no personality.)

Don't get me wrong, you can love your country as much as you want, I'm not saying you can't. But when it's all you can talk about, and you make it your ENTIRE personality, that's when it gets weird and concerning.

Well that happened...

Now that I think of it, I remember a time when I was in Middle School. A Hall Monitor told me I needed to sit down once I get to class and when I got there, the Pledge of Allegiance came on and I still sat there. I have a habit of doing what people tell me to do, (which gets me into bad situations like being sexually harassed by the bus driver.) When all of a sudden, my teacher started yelling at me that I needed to stand up for the pledge of allegiance. (Like literally by law, you don't have to do the Pledge if you don't want to.) But in this case it was because I was told to sit down, otherwise I would have done it because that's just what I was told to do.  

Check out this article I found on the subject, they made some really interesting points as well. 

Why Instilling Patriotism is Ludicrous 

Wild Office Stories: This is what we found on the floor!

I may have gotten out of retail, but that doesn't mean I don't deal with nutty people! 

Here are some stories of bizarre individuals I've found myself meeting while in an office setting.

What are those... exactly?

One time this lady came into the office, looking like a ragamuffin with her torn up clothes. She dropped a square package on the floor, which I thought was a small pack of tissues. The girls were laughing about it and thought it was so funny, I'm just like, what's so funny about tissues??

My gay ass didn't know they were tampons!  

When the lady realized she dropped them, she went "Oh shit!".

 Like just draw more attention to yourself why don't you... 

The girls thought it was funny I didn't know what they were lol...

 

I want to speak to the CEO of the company!!!

We get a message from this dude on Facebook, I thought he wanted to use our services. We tell him to call the office and my co-worker was on the phone with him and tells me that this guy sounds crazy! He was very rude to her.

He went on to say that he is so disappointed that the CEO of a company would go and "Defame" him and he was upset that he couldn't talk to the CEO directly.

So it turns out, this guy was mad because we liked a Facebook Page that was telling people to not do business with him and his company. After some research, I found out that this was my fault. People will invite you to like pages on Facebook and I have a tendency to automatically like these pages without reading what it is. You could call me a serial liker! So I liked "Don't do business with This guy", without even realizing I did that. lol

We explained that we liked the page in error and un-liked it, he actually responded with thank you.

But the fact that this guy was rude to us and looked up everyone who liked this page and messaged them, just kinda shows what kind of nutjob he really is. If it was me, I'd be asking people what I could do to help them change their mind about my service, not attack them and do some crazy FBI investigation, messaging everyone why you would like this page, sending them bizarre messages about it!

Random person right off the street

Some man came in, he was wearing tattered clothes and he wasn't really easy to understand. He wanted to take a bus, but wasn't really making sense about it. One of the guys ended up giving him an extra pair of socks.

One of my coworkers said the owner should give him a job! lol  

Can you believe this? A Homophobe right under my nose!

In 2014, I posted on Facebook, why being Gay is NOT a choice. I referenced my blog post that I made, which you can find >Here<

Short Version:

A so called friend I met from my Formspring days had decided to argue with me that being gay was a choice, despite me telling him that it's not a choice and that I never chose to be gay and how no one in their right mind would choose something that is widely hated and discriminated against.

"My friend Van: Why would anyone want to be gay though? You live a harder life because of it!"

The Formspring friend provided sources that he praised, even though they were not factual and just opinions made by the source.

If you're curious to see the Conversation, I copied and pasted it from when it happened. (It's been hibernating in this blog for so many years!)

Long Version:

Before we get into this pile of trash 

 Let me tell you my two cents

What I think is weird is, if you think being gay is a choice, then you think everyone chose to be gay. With that logic, It's like if someone hates Salami, but you don't believe it's possible to hate Salami and you tell Salami haters that they do like Salami and are just choosing not to eat it because they're "Rebellious" and want to be "Quirky", or some other asinine reason.

That's a very similar take, like the person doesn't like Salami and you're telling them that they're lying to themselves about how they feel about something, when obviously you aren't them so you wouldn't understand their dislike for Salami!

Like people get so annoyed that they can't relate with someone on something, that they have to hate them for it, or just flat out say it doesn't exist when it does!

People saying being gay is a choice is like saying that person is lying to themselves, when they know damn well better about themselves than you do. No one is going to lie about being gay (except for those rude people who do it for clout, those people should be ignored.)

It's so weird that people try to force their ideology on others, like who are you to tell me on how I should or should not feel?! 

Why you be playing with my emotions?!

The only lie I lived was thinking I was straight, which is a byproduct of only seeing straight people in Tv shows and Video Games, I didn't even know you could be LGBT because the straight agenda has been shoved down our throats our entire lives. (Yeah I said it! There's no gay agenda, but there's a straight one since they didn't want you to think LGBT people existed!)

Here is the blog post on why, being gay is not a choice.

The Facebook Convo

For Privacy, we'll call them Fish-Paste, but in a previous blog post about Ex-Formspring friends, I called them Danger Noodle.


For Authentic purposes, I will NOT be changing the wording of my posts (Although I want to because I went through an ellipses phase that I don't want to talk about. But I will fix Capitalization and punctuation for my friends post.)

I had posted the "why being gay is not a choice" blog post on my Facebook and they responded with...

 
Fish-Paste:
So I take it you totally ignored the recent findings by renowned institutions? http://www.onenewsnow.com/perspectives/bryan-fischer/2014/06/17/the-latest-in-scientific-research-there-is-no-gay-gene

Me: I've never even seen that before, but I call BS on it.. I am not a fan of religious/republican sites... but that one seems fishy. If someone doesn't agree with it, I am sure they could make up a story like that.

If it was from a scientific type of site, then I would believe it .. or at-least acknowledge it more. But the fact that is a republican/religious site, I don't believe it at all.

I know that being gay is not a choice personally, since I did not choose to be gay.

Fish-Paste:
So you are telling me that you don't have the free will to choose NOT to be gay?

(Editors Comment: I'm wondering if they're saying that you "choose" who to be with, but you can't "choose" who you're attracted to, if that makes sense. Because I've seen that argument before and it's like totally not the point. People always have to point out the gray areas..)

Me:
Okay, so I skimmed the article you posted before, but this time I actually read it.. and it's actually not any sort of research, all they did was pick out what they thought was odd from another article online.. there was no actual scientific research on their part at all... just opinions and conclusions they came up with. You really can't base anything off of that.

I hope you're being sarcastic, but I can't completely tell as I have a clueless personality. lol
But, if you're are being 100% serious, I will ask you if you actually read my blog post.. because I explained everything there.
I cannot get a hard on for a woman, it is not possible.. I did not want to be gay at first.. I would have chosen to be straight if it was possible, but it's not.
I have no attraction towards women, just like how a straight person can't be attracted to someone of the same gender.. it's not possible.

Fish-Paste:
I did read your blog post all the way through (in case you thought *I* skimmed as well).

Me:
But were you being sarcastic? Like do you honestly think being gay is a choice? Or were you playing around?


Fish-Paste:
I honestly think it's a choice.

Don't believe me? Just look at the lifestyle choices of David Bowie from the 70's through today and TRY to tell me it's not a personal choice.

(Editors Comment: They seem to be confusing Personal tastes in Fashion with being gay, which is not the same thing. Also, clothes don't have genders, let people wear what they want! Men used to wear high-heels and dresses back in the day, but somewhere along the line it changed into a "womens only" kind of thing.)

Me:
Well, I KNOW It is not a choice. I guess we all have our opinions, even if we don't agree with them. But, I don't see why anyone would choose to allow themselves to be hated by thousands of people, beaten and tortured.
I know I didn't. It's just not physically possible to choose who to be attracted to.
I know I can't change your mind, we all have our opinions.. fact or not.

David Bowie sounds like he has/had a hormone imbalance, he just didn't know what he was into and unlike most, he didn't know until he was older.. Either that or he is bisexual if anything, but mainly heterosexual with slight bisexual tendencies. It's not just black and white, it's a whole spectrum. Someone could be bi and only be attracted to one person of one gender and attracted plenty of people of another gender.

Refer to the Kinsey Scale.

Kinsey scale - Wikipedia

 
But, you cannot make an opinion on just one person. Some people are just different like that, but most people know what they like, whether it is straight, gay, bi, pansexual... etc..

Then I had linked my friend Victor... he was recently talking to me about how the guy didn't listen to him either.

Victor:
Correction being gay is neither a choice or a genetic disorder. It is in fact a physical or mental attraction to the same sex. While it is true that most homosexuals have certain traits
very small and very exact, however the human body will respond to almost all types of stimuli if touched erotically especially in certain erogenous areas of the body (read up on certain sexual abuse situation and how others try expound on the victims arousal) however it is the mind that tells us off attraction and since you both are fond of science than you both should know that attraction is caused by pheromones we put out and how others respond to these pheromones. So a homosexual is really just responding to these pheromones that males produce instead of a females, also one cannot count religion in any argument via that there are other religions and in ancient times homosexuality was more common than weather shifts, But I Digress. While there are heterosexuals that have at times chose live the heterosexual lifestyle that does not include the entire gay population, For instance a female that will engage in homoerotic contact with another female for her significant others viewing pleasure or for another males attention or even male and female actors in the adult industry that perform homosexual sex as part of there job. So in essence both of you are right and wrong. Not to mention I don't see the big deal, I have sex men and women and even partake in orgies. As far as I'm concerned its not really topic worthy. However also the whole gay gene inst what people mean by born gay but if you want to say there might be, than bring up the fact that most homosexuals have certain physical features that seem to match and coincide with other homosexuals, and no not that horrible lisp dear god, but certain eye-shape, body type both tiny and big, its no exact but pretty close.

So remember attraction is caused by pheromones and how we respond, things like homosexuality and heterosexuality is actually all about your nature vs nurture, because before we did gender-base and sexualize most societies were very sexually open. Well except when it came to children that was non negotiable as I understand. The old native Americans called it two-soul, a person born with the soul or spirit of a man and woman in one body when it came to homosexuality. When it changed I have no idea.

Hope that helps your argument because friends shouldn't fight

Fish-Paste did like the comment, as well as a few of my comments, which was weird and made it harder to figure out if this was all some horrendous joke.

 

The Verdict:
I decided that I didn't need this ignorant jerk on my Facebook. He also annoyed me with other things by commenting on my Facebook, with rude remarks.

One time I posted a video of the anime Excel Saga and in the clip the main character Excel appears in America and doesn't know what she is saying in English and doesn't know where or what she is doing. By doing this, she angers the residents.
Fish-Paste commented "If that happened to me I would get my gun and start shooting!". Like UGH why.
Because that's appropriate....He was such a buzzkill by making Light-Hearted things so negative and violent for absolutely no reason!

Although I blocked them, I went on their profile 7 years later on my work Facebook. They're VERY Conservative, so that explains everything and I'm glad I blocked them. Don't need such ignorance in my life. 

One fact I learned at every job I've had

I've worked in quite a few jobs in the last 8 years, and I've learned some interesting things!

This will be updated for every job I have etc..

1. Mail Room - Automatic Staplers exist. (I wasn't aware of this until I worked this job.)

2. Social Services  - There are Not For Profit organizations that help the unemployed that are on Government assistance to get jobs! (I was the one who looked up jobs online and sent job ads to the clients)
(This is a United States only fact, I don't know if other countries do this.)

3. Retail -Different colored items in a store might be a different price because some colors sell more than others, so they discount the ones that aren't selling as well so they can sell the product.

So if the Red Dress is 19.99 and the Green Dress is 16.99, it's because the Green Dress isn't selling as well.

4. Private Investigation Industry - In United States, any vehicle with a license plate that has two letters at the end of the license plate number is a Commercial Vehicle. Example: 1234-AB.

5. Trucking Industry - United States of America, Canada and Europe, have road regulations that trucking companies have to follow to make sure the roads are safe and to prevent accidents! These companies also have to pay extra taxes, to ensure their vehicles are safe enough to be on the road.

 6. Eco-Friendly Industry -Eco-Friendly disposable products can be made out of materials such as Bamboo, and Palm Leaves.

7. Restoration Services Industry - When someone's house is damaged, they have to create a blueprint of the house, including how measurements of the house and mark what has been damaged. A program will calculate how much it will cost to fix everything.

What is a fact that you learned at your job?

Retail Stories: They did WHAT!?

Shop till you Drop!

I once saw a woman with a cart filled with merchandise and she walked away from the cart to look at a dress and walked right out the door, leaving the cart filled with crap just sitting there. It was so annoying, like why even bother shopping if you weren’t going to get anything?!

Karma, in Action!

When I worked retail, I had a supervisor who didn’t take crap from anyone and made people buy an item if they broke it intentionally.

One time this lady had her kids running around this expensive globe item that was like 50-80 dollars and the supervisor told the lady that her kids can’t be running around the store and if they break that globe, they have to buy it.

Well. Guess what happened? The kids broke the globe the customer paid for it!

One of the only good Karma stories I have. 

 

Facebook Recoil

This guy I used to work with knew this girl, who he didn't really like being friends with. I didn't know her, nor do I have her on facebook, But she angry smiled 30 of my public posts for no reason, and then when I went onto her facebook and did the same, she messaged me and said "fight me lil puss", then blocked me. lmao what...

He told me that she was bored.

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