Unfriended - ?

So, today I want to talk about people unfriending you on facebook. But not just any kind of unfriending.
This particular type of unfriending I find weird, because the person who unfriends you, is the one that added you in the first place!
This topic isn't from anything that has happened recently, I have a list of things to post on this blog, and I thought I'd post this one. Because it's most likely going to be the shortest, and I only have a day left to post a new post for this week.

Back in 2012, up until May 2013. I had an app on facebook that allowed me to see who would unfriend me on facebook. So whenever someone unfriended me, I would find out who it was. Like, I didn't go to their house with a knife threatening to stab all of their potatoes!!! I swear, I didn't really.. you have to believe me!
I was really disappointed actually, as I have over 500 friends on facebook, about 75% of them are people I do not know, or do not talk to. Yet, most of the people that unfriended me, were people I actually knew in real life! That 75% of people on facebook, are people online that I just added, of course there are a few I actually do talk to, a good 10% I would say.

There were two people who unfriended me, that I was close with. So that made no sense. The one person we had started to drift because he was becoming a hermit who didn't want to talk to anyone, and the other person was my cousins ex girlfriend. Apparently she thinks it's cool to unfriend people who actually talked to her, and ignore them because she wasn't with their cousin anymore, even though I considered her a  friend.

But anyways, there were four people,who unfriended me, and I just thought it was weird.

One of them was a girl I used to be best friends with in the 8th grade, and I honestly don't think she knew who I was, as a use a different first name on facebook.
But, because I added her, there was another girl I used to know in school that added me, for the record, it was her that added me, not the other way around.
I never talked to either of them, but after a year had passed. I saw that the girl I was best friends with many moons ago had unfriended me, which didn't bother me because we didn't really know each other anymore. (Funny enough, my supervisor in retail, her daughter is best friends with her!)
But, what did bother me, was that the other girl who added me also unfriended me a bit later.. I got a notification from the app, and I didn't understand it because SHE ADDED ME!! NOT ME. Like, why even add me in the first place, if you're just going to unfriend me in a year? What is the point in that?!
It boggles my mind!
When I friend someone, I will keep you, even if we don't talk. That is why I have 500 friends. as I said before, most of them I don't know or do not talk to.. but they're still there.

This also happened with someone else, who had lot's of mutual friends with me. Our mutual friends, I did actually know in real life, and we actually talked before. He was the one that added me, and a year later he decided to unfriend me. I don't know why, but what was the point in that? Don't add me, if you're going to unfriend me. Even if it's a year later, add me, if you know you will be keeping me.
We actually talked about things too, so I was really surprised.

There was also a friend, whom I added. I added her because we had lot's of mutual friends with people I do know IRL and, she liked the game Kya Dark Lineage. So I was like, Oh cool, a Kya fan that lives near me!
So, when I added her, we actually hit it off pretty well,we talked about lot's of things, and she even got me to play Mabinogi.
She unfriended me maybe two years later, and my friend Chaco had also added her. When I got the notification that she unfriended me, I asked Chaco to message her.
So, when my he got her response, she unfriended him too, which I thought was funny.

But, she said "We don't talk anymore".

Which I thought was really stupid, like if we haven't talked for a long time, you could actually put the effort in CONTACTING ME!! Like, it is not my sheer responsibility to talk to you. It's a 50 - 50 thing, you talk to me, I'll talk to you. I'm also bad at keeping touch with people as well, all because I haven't talked to you, doesn't mean I don't want to. Just say hi, and I'll be like HAY GURL HAY, HOW'S U?
Don't unfriend me for such a ridiculous excuse, put in the effort to say hi! It's not very hard.
If you don't want to talk to me, make a comment on something I post, like something. It shows that you're still around and that you care. If you just disappear, then I may forget about you.
Obviously, they didn't consider me much of a friend if they just decided to leave me, if they did care they would have held on tightly and actually tried to contact me again.
I think the funny part though, was that she got me into Mabinogi, even though I said that I don't like MMORPG's, because they're all the same. She told me Mabinogi was different, and guess what? IT WASN'T! It was the same, just like every other MMORPG.
I don't know, maybe I just don't like MMORPG's.

A fun fact, I used to block people when they unfriended me. I stopped doing that though, and I unblocked everyone that I blocked solely because they unfriended me.

Although, the only time I really unfriended someone was because of their false accusations of me, they still wanted to be friends, but then they pretty much just ignored me, so I was like BYE FELICIA!

That's another story for another day. Link here

The way I see it, is they're just making room for someone better to pop in my life sometime in the future.

EDIT: As of 2019, I've gotten rid of many random accounts. My Facebook friend list is in it's 300's now, and every now and again, I take out some of the trash!

Cute guys at Walmart? A fated encounter? Or a one shot deal?

So, on Sunday, I went to Walmart. Before I start, let me tell you that I have not seen any cute guys in public for a while, not including the store I work at. At my job, I see them every now and again,but not when I was somewhere else.

(2019 me here, prepare for some cringe!!!) 

So, on Sunday, 1/19/2014. I went to Walmart for a price adjustment, so I went to customer service. While on the line, I saw one guy at the registers doing returns, and I was like, he is so cute!
It took a while for the other customers to be serviced because there was a problem, but when I was next, the cute guy took me! I was so excited, I actually had butterflies in my stomach! But it also could have been because I am not good with talking, and telling people things. At the same time I never get butterflies when talking to someone in person. Like when I explained that I needed a price adjustment, my mother actually had to intervene and explain cause he didn't understand what I meant! XD
My mother was there, but she was my ride, I know not the best time to want to flirt with cute guys.
But, while he was servicing me (Not in that way ;o), he took off his jacket, and he showed the goods. He had muscles for days henny!! He had a nice body, I could see his muscles rippling through his shirt!! It was hot!!

Unfortunately, I didn't get to see if he got da booty.
I honestly just wanted to grab him and kiss him!! My inner top is showing. XD

Although, I was staring at him, he didn't notice me in the way I noticed him. But it could also be because he was working, and he just seemed very eh. As someone who has worked in customer service before, I know that it is very draining, crazy people yelling at you all of the times, so it is tiring.
I left with my price adjustment, and I was just so happy that I saw this cute guy. I had to text someone, so I sent a text to 7 of my friends, and got interesting responses from all of them.

The most interesting part is that I read the guy's name tag, and the guy's name is DEAN!! Like Dean Winchester from Supernatural?! I was totally fangirling in my mind, I also think Dean Winchester/ Jensen Ackles is cute too, so I think that is funny.
Oddly enough, the name Dean became 50 times sexier. Which I noticed seems to happen, like when I had a crush on this guy named Eric, the name became so much hotter for some reason!!

Here's the interesting part, usually if I see a cute gu,.I'll go "I bet he's straight!" because I tend to fall for the straight guys...
But, I did not categorize him as gay (or straight). When I categorize a guy as gay, they are 100% going to end up being straight. This is actually my mind wishfully thinking they could be into me, it's only when it's an inner gut feeling, that is when they usually are gay, this is how it works for me. (My inner gut feelings are always correct! This is how I knew some people were gay, who I have worked with)
However, for this guy, I did not do any of this. I didn't think of him in any way, and I think that could be a good thing. (Either that, or just don't do that anymore period.). He could end up being anything, maybe even bi.. but I don't know.
I do feel like I will meet him again though.. and I hope so... I feel like this guy is more than a random cute guy. (Spoiler alert from 2019, never saw this dude again)

Here is a video by Nickalaws and Gay God.. about flirting!! I know most of these.. especially the one about spying on social media.. I've done that before and I dodged a bullet! I had a crush on this guy at work, and I found out his name, and he is with a woman.. basically the story of my life.. I still flirted with him twice though, but to get better at it!

EDIT: 2018 - The video has since been removed, since they broke up, centuries ago. After millions of years, I found a repost of the video.

Also, on Amazon they have product about sewing.. and well.. you know.. the last thing about this image they have... I really couldn't care about sewing if you ask me...I'm too busy distracted by something else...

No copyright infringement intended.. I just wanted to show my viewers something else.. if you know what I mean... *wink* *wink* ;]

Click to enlarge.. but not like that ;*

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I end the post with Awkward, by the youtuber Miles Jai! I actually chatted with him a few times when he had a formspring account.

Psychic Vampirism, real or fake? A strange occurrance!

A few posts ago, I mentioned that I was told I am a psychic vampire. From what I've been told, and from what I've read.  A psychic vampire steals energy from people around them, this action is either unconscious or conscious, depending on the person. For me it's unconscious. So, if someone is draining another persons energy unconsciously, they're not doing it on purpose. It just happens without either parties knowing.
I mentioned one time when I felt super depressed because of an argument between a manager, and a co-worker. (link here)
I'm a very happy go lucky person, but I have always been some sort of emotional sponge that gets affected by negative atmosphere. Psychic vampirism actually explains why I am a sponge of the emotional kind.
A psychic vampire takes people's energy, whether it's good energy, or bad energy. So, when there is bad energy, it causes the vampire to be in a very negative mood. I'm sure a hematite stone would solve this, as they take away negative energy!

Always remember, not all vampires suck blood!

(Drawing of my friend Kevin, by me) 

So anyways, today I was leaving work and of course my umbrella just had to break when I opened it... I decided to swing it like a sword, and the umbrella part flung towards a car, while the stick part stayed dormant in my hand. Luckily it wasn't raining that badly... I was still wet though, not in that way YOU PERVERT!

So, I walk to the bus stop, and the bus is about to leave, I get on the bus, of course all of the good seats are taken. Usually I take the middle seat, but it was taken already. So I sat in the front of the bus, and I hate the front because I feel like everyone's looking at me! I end up having to sit next to two people, a man on my left and a man/woman on my right. (I honestly did not look at them, so I don't really know if it was a man, woman, both or gender neutral. lol). I thought it was a woman, but I am not exactly sure.
Well, anyways. I sat between these two people as if I was in a human sandwich (We weren't that close, an empty seat between each person).
I always get my wallet out after being seated, so I can get my money prepared for the next time I take the bus.
But, after I sat down.. I just couldn't take my wallet out, I just did not want to. I felt like I couldn't, like something was stopping me from doing anything... so I figure I'll just do it when I get home instead.
A few minutes into the ride, and I just start to get really really sad, like I legitimately thought I was going to start crying.
At first, I thought it was because of the little girl crying on the bus. Sometimes I get emotional when people cry, whether they're human, or a gremlin. By gremlin, I meant kids, either way really.
But the thing is, that little girl is on the bus all of the time with her crazy mother who is always on the phone yelling at whoever is on the other line. I've heard her cry a few times before, because of her mother yelling at her not to do something. So why would this time be any different? If the little girl doesn't make me sad when she was crying the first 50 million times, why would it affect me now?
I just perished the thought, and just started daydreaming as usual. But I didn't want to do anything. I felt like I couldn't do much, I just could not reach for my phone to read my messages, or text anyone.. I couldn't get my hand sanitizer, I just felt like I was being watched, or something, it was just weird, I felt very uncomfortable.
I have sat on the bus between people before in the front, and I've never really felt this way (Maybe a bit of "ooh people are staring at me" but that's it.) I have never had a strong emotion like this before... so it wasn't my social anxiety, it was just something else.
The minute that woman/man, that was to the right of me gets off the bus, I was relieved, a few moments in and I felt normal again, I didn't feel sadness, I didn't want to cry. I wasn't uncomfortable anymore, nothing was holding me down anymore. I easily took out my money, looked at my phone, I didn't bother with the hand sanitizer because I was half way there already, and I was going to have to pull that dirty rope to ring the bell for my stop anyways.
I felt like something was holding me from doing anything, trying to get me upset, and once that person left, I felt on top of the world again. It didn't matter to me that there were people behind me that could see what I was doing. It was that ONE person that was next to me, that just made everything uncomfortable.
So, my first thought is that the crazy lady, although crazy, doesn't actually have negative energy. Since it would affect me and, even thought she's crazy, and needs to be put in a mental asylum with the sign reading "NEVER RELEASE!!". She actually does not have negative energy surrounding her, or at least not enough to affect me since I just suck it all up like I did with your dad last night. Oh come on, you ran right into that joke! (Unless you have two moms or one mom or you just don't have a dad....).
My second thought was, that lady man or whatever, has a whole lot of negative energy. I feel like she/he was very sad, so they may not be a bad person. Perhaps, just down on their luck, especially if they're riding the bus... am I right? right right? I'll shut up now...

So, my thought was, they were very depressed, just nothing good going in the world.
They must have had lot's of energy to spare since I sucked it all up like a vacuum, I do hope I made them feel better though! Since I am taking it away from them, and then the energy just disappears like Jimmy Hoffa. Man, I am on a roll today with these jokes today! I hope that last one wasn't offensive!!!
As the bus ride goes on, I recover from the negative energy and I feel great, happy and normal again.
I get off the bus and I take out my hematite stone, as I said before it takes away negative energy, so I wanted to make sure it took any lingering energy away, I just held it in my hand imagining the negative energy as it flows through my body out into the ground. Then I took out my Amethyst crystal, which garners protection, and I just held it for a bit as I walked home to make sure it could protect me from anything else.

Now, the interesting thing is that usually when I am affected by negative energy, I feel sad for the entire day until I go to bed and wake up. But this time I felt normal and relieved once the person left. So, there's obviously a difference with this random stranger and someone I knew that was getting fired from their job.

I don't know who this stranger was, but I do wonder... are they just down on their luck? Are they evil? Are they a Vampire too trying something fishy? Or, are they actually a goat in disguise as a llama? Just like the tootsie roll pop commercial, the world may never know!

EDIT: As of 2019, I am not a psychic vampire. Psychic Vampires are negative, and usually bad people. I am an empath, which is the ability to feel other people's emotions.

Saying goodbye to Formspring

Picture by me.

Today is my last day on formspring. I've decided that I have been on it for too long! I actually wanted to leave a year ago, but I never did... After seeing a video by Tyler Oakley. I am going to take the next step and leave formspring for good! The site has had me procrastinating for years... I have lot's of projects that I really want to do, and formspring is something that is not allowing me to do them. Without it, I should be able to actually do the things I really want to do, but keep leaving to the side. I've wanted to get back on my stories, comic, video game ideas, all of these things and one step is to get rid of Formspring, it's just a waste of time!

I bid adieu to my formspring friends and posted a link to how I can still talk to them, but this will be my last time on there.. it's too much of a time consumer.

Let's do something!! Now let's forget I ever said we'd do that!!!

I hate it when people say they will do something with me soon, or in a few months.But then end up never doing it, or if I remind them, they tell me they don't even remember saying they'd hang out with me!

One of my friends from my first job said they would go out with me soon, to hang out and just talk. This was back in 2011 and that never happened. But I don't harbor any hard feelings and to be honest.. People forget things all of the time, I guess it's just a burden on me because I remember these things.

Another time, just this past summer of 2013, a friend that I work with said she'd take me out to the Cheesecake Factory for my birthday, because I said I never went there before. Months later, in December (My birthday month), I tell her this and she says she doesn't remember ever saying that! When I said this, she said instead she'd bake me a cake for my birthday ,and she ended up not even doing that! She said that a week before my birthday, you'd think a week would be an easier times-lot to remember to do something!
I know with this particular person, you cannot really count on when it comes to most things, as she's lazy and never does anything. So I don't take it personally, it's just how she is. One minute she's putting something away, the next she's wandering around in circles trying to count the dots in her eyes!

But the one time that I was actually bothered by this, was one time at my second job in an office, back in the summer of 2012.

I made up names for everyone!

1. There was the supervisor, Whaley Wells.
2. Senior worker, Bandy Sandy
3. Fancy Penny, worked there because her dad worked in the same building.
4. Crystal Krystal, was an unpaid intern/volunteer like me.
5. Last, but not least, was the birthday girl, Katie Carlsson!
6. Me of course, World class detective, Maya Jamahson! 
7. Good Ol' Gwynne, was my friend in the other department. A spunky grandma who I sat next to. Her name is the only one that is not changed, since I still talk to her (As of 2019)

My supervisor told me we were all going to surprise Katie for her birthday in two weeks, and go out to lunch to Ruby Tuesdays! I was an unpaid intern/volunteer, and the supervisor said they would pay for me anyways.

Two weeks later, and my mother asked me if I had packed lunch for that day. I told her that we were all going out to eat, so I didn't need to.

To be clear, I worked in a small department that was inside of a bigger office,  just down the hall was the main office.

Usually around 1pm, I would go to the bigger office to do other duties.

So, when it was Katie Carlsson's birthday, I didn't bring lunch because Whaley Wells said we'd be going to Ruby Tuesdays. So, It's about 1pm, and I'm in the main office now, just waiting for Whaley, and the other girls to just come over to my desk, and say come on let's go!
The desk I would sit at was actually by the door, so I knew they would have passed right by me.
I'm working just waiting for them to come by, and there they are! I see all of them, Whaley, Bandy, Katie, Fancy, just chatting away, walking towards the door behind me. You might say to yourself,  happens next? Well...
They walked right past me, continued talking to each other, opened the door, and just leave....So I was thinking, maybe they'll be back in a moment to pick me up right? RIGHT??? (At the time, I didn't have a license, and took the bus.)
After a while, I got confused, what's going on here?! Why did they just pass by me? Did Whaley not remember that she INVITED ME TO GO WITH THEM!?
I was thinking to myself, what was going on, and if they really decided to ditch me... what was I going to eat?

If you haven't noticed by now, there was one name that I didn't mention yet. Crystal Krystal, the other intern. She was not with them when they left.
That's when it hit me. They went on break, for Katie Carlsson's birthday blowout, when Crystal was still on break! They most likely left, right BEFORE Crystal came back from break. When I went into the office, I saw Crystal, just doing her thing at her desk, and everyone else was gone.
Whaley Wells, and the other girls were up to something. They went on break while Crystal was on break, and I was in the other office. This way, they didn't have to invite us to Ruby Tuesdays with them! Since we were both not making any money, they'd have to pay for us, and probably didn't want to.

If you ask me, I don't think the other girls were involved,  I think it was all Whaley's doing. The three other girls, were probably not involved.

This was a low blow, because she not only ditched me, but the other girl as well! If she didn't want us coming, why even tell me in the first place?!  I may forget to take the garbage out, but I remember things like this!!

So, Gwynne, being a 60 year old grandmother that is a firecracker, just starts cursing them off to me.


She was like "Them F*ckers!".

Fortunately for my stomach, one of the ladies in the bigger office was having a back to work party. So there was food in the break room, and therefore I did not go hungry.

It's really funny how things work sometimes, that one day I didn't bring lunch, and got ditched. I was saved by a woman who was back to work!
Of course my mother had to ask me how it was going to Ruby Tuesdays, I didn't want to upset my mother, so I just told her that we all decided to just eat the nice lunch they made in the break room, thanks to the lady coming back to work.

This is the one time someone told me something, and then never actually did it. This was the one time it really did bother me! That is not cool, she shouldn't have ever even said anything in the first place if she didn't want me there. I usually remember everything, so if someone's going to forget, it won't be me!

Blog post every week!

So, as a part of the new year.. I am going to make at least one blog post per week. The days will be random or they'll go by a certain rule.. such as I'll make a post on Sunday, then next week Monday etc...
I'm not going to stop and just blog once a week.. I'll have plenty of thoughts in between, but I want to try and create more thoughts and ideas.
By coincidence, I have made a blog post at least once every week for the past three weeks! So, I subconsciously started already!

PS. This marks my 50th post!

As of 2019, I plan to post my blog on the first day I'm off. When I was in retail, I always had Thurssdays off. Right now, I have Sunday and Mondays off, and eventually, maybe It will  be Saturdays. I plan to also have at least one original image in each post!

Ignorance

Quote - Everybody is ignorant only on different subjects. - Will Rogers

What do you think about this quote? I find it is very true! I have noticed in myself and in others that we are all ignorant about something, it can be anything. Ignorance is something that can be stopped at times and other times not so much...

I know there is something I am ignorant about, and I am sure there is something you're ignorant about too, you may not even realize it! But, it's always the best when you accept what it is that you're ignorant about. When you know what your flaws are, and you can accept it, it allows you to be a more open minded individual. Especially since if you know you're ignorant about this subject.. then you also have the chance of changing your ignorance . But, if you can't accept it, that just makes you a more closed minded individual, usually. (Bring it on haters :P).

As well as not acting out on what you're ignorant about makes you a better person...  

I think it's best for us not to say what we are ignorant about, I think it's better to just keep quiet about it. I don't think it's a problem if you tell a friend, just as long as they don't have a problem with it.. or if you explain your ignorance thoroughly.

I don't have a whole lot to say about this.. and I just hope it made sense!