I'm the physical embodiment of a Japanese highschool girl! pt4

At this point, I might as well just become a nun!

 

Let's re-cap,

 

• I had a crush on a guy named "Ace", who was two years younger than me and a CJ major, • Then a crush on a guy named Scotty, who was 8 years younger than me. 
• Once again, I had a crush on a guy named Ace, who was also two years younger than me and a CJ major.

 

After I left the job where the second Ace left, I got a new job and started crushing on a new guy, while still thinking about the second Ace. 

 

This new guy, "Davey", was cute, but I didn't have a strong vibe from him like the two Ace's. I knew he was straight from the start for once, so I wasn't going to try anything.

 

I was starting to really like this guy, but because I knew he was straight, I knew it wasn't going to happen. (Which in a way is nice since I did NOT know the first three dudes well enough to know their sexuality, in fact, one of them is still a mystery to me.)

 

Two years later and you can only imagine the emotional rollercoaster I've had with this boy. He's honestly the perfect regular guy, he's not hot, he's not gorgeous, he's just cute and he's a really nice guy.

(The three other guys I've been talking about were all cute or gorgeous etc...)

We have the same hobbies, we're both nerds, he's a super sweet guy. Like my type really is the nice guy.  Sure, he makes lame jokes that only a straight boy would make, like making a joke he's going to charge 5 dollars for helping me with a small task (In which I responded, I could pay in other ways, but that would be considered sexual harassment. He never said that to me again lol.), or making some ridiculous scheme where he wants me to photoshop him in a casino where hes making money. (In which I offered to photoshop him six feet under the ocean instead.).

But what it comes down to it, is that oddly enough, it's a part of his charm. He's actually a really nice person who I feel is very protective of the people he cares about. He's really supportive too, Like one time, I said I needed to get out more to try and get a bf and he said that I should do that with the new year, ironically the coronavirus pandmeic started after that so that never happened.

Another time, some random hot guy messaged the company facebook account and they were flirting and saying that the boss was so hot (Despite the FB profile picture being a logo, maybe he things logos are hot?)
I made some ridiculous story saying the boss was taken but her son was single and thinks he's hot and the FB random went on to ask for a wechat id and when I showed the straight guy, he was like, but he still responded!! As if I had a chance with a random probably bot on FB, but I appreciated him being supportive and not being weird about it like some straight guys would be. 

It's just an ongoing juggle of having an on and off crush on this guy. He's nothing but a loveable loser.

I guess at-least in this case I know it's not going to happen.

 I just wish I could stop having a crush on someone that's never going to like me back, it's so annoying and irritating. 

What's so annoying though, I asked him if he ever wanted to hang out and he said he is a private person, but still wants to be friends. Like why would you go out of your way to be friends with someone, to never hang out? That's like a glorified pen pal I feel like I wasted all my time for nothing.

The funny thing is, he commented on my Instagram about hiking (He said "Really cool"), so I thought he wanted to go hiking with me and that's where I got the idea from in the first place.

It's annoying because I...

• Went out of my way to get into Dua Lipa so we would have something to talk about.

• Started posting Instagram stories so he'd notice me.

• Going out of my way to text him, even though he had a 50% chance of leaving me on read. In person, he always seems to want to talk to me, so I thought it was mutual.

Weird thing is though, there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about the ginger guy from my last job. Like it's so weird, I think about him every day, and I have no idea why...even after two years of not seeing him in person, I still think about him. Is it limerence? Is it the universe trying to tell me something? Is it Becky with the bad hair playing a trick on me? Who knows! 

 

At this moment in time, I simultaneously have a crush on a straight guy I'm starting to become friends with, and a guy who doesn't even know I exist! Could my life get any more annoying? Actually, don't answer that..

Then I started to realize, I had a crush on my neighbor of 10 years. Guess what his name is, if you guessed Ace, and guess what the hell he does, he's a cop.. well...

The Verdict...

So apparently, I unintentionally have a thing for guys named Ace, that are CJ majors, and this is coincidental, since I am not actively seeking these guys out to crush on. Nor do I usually know their sexuality, names, career affiliations first either.

Then there are two LGBT youtubers, and a straight one named Ace, who I also think are really attractive, and that's when I realized I really do seem to have a thing for guys named Ace...
The job with Davey, there's a guy named Ace as well, and he's drop dead gorgeous. He's a part of the drug & Alcohol testing department, which can be considered CJ related! (If he told me to bend over, bitch I would, but I also think he has small D*ck energy...But whatever)

Pardon my french, but what the absolute hell.. is going on?! 

So guys I know/knew of in person named Ace, are CJ majors, and I tend to crush on them.

Funny Story: Something funny happened before the second Ace left the job.
I went to the bathroom at work, and there was someone in the stall already, and so I went to the next one. This guy, was in there longer than me (I could tell he was on his phone when I walked by, because I saw a light between the space in the stall.)
It always takes me 10-13 minutes in a public bathroom because I'm a germaphobe (Don't want to touch anything), and bathrooms relax me...

Well, I got this sudden urge to say "HEY DADDY, WHAT YOU DOING?"

I DID NOT DO THIS!!!!

But I wanted to.....

So a few minutes later I go to the break room, which is right next to the bathroom, and guess who walks in, the guy I like. Guess what he was wearing, all blue (On valentines day, gurl, someone ain't festive??)
Guess what color outfit the person in the stall was wearing? Blue...
So there's a chance, that I wanted to say "Hey daddy", conveniently, to the guy I liked, without knowing it was even him! lol

Sadly enough, and ironically enough. He got a new job two weeks later, which is really strange because I remember thinking that I had a time limit to talk to him, like deep down the universe was telling me he would be getting a new job at some point.

Synopsis: 

• The universe is playing me dirty, and has me continuously crush on guys named Ace, who are all CJ majors.
• Between each guy named Ace, I end up having a smaller, usually short lived/ Or not as strong of a crush on a guy not named Ace.
• The two guys between the Ace's, did not have the same name. However, they both used preferred nicknames that end with "Y" that was a close variant of their actual name. Scott, was called "Scotty", and Dave was called "Davey".etc (Their real names do actually end with a Y too and I used these fake names because of it.). They also had/have a great sense of fashion and wear earrings, which was another thing that made me think they were gay at first, and or made me attracted to them.
• Three out of 4 of these crushes were on guys 2 years younger, or older than me.

Yearly Review:

2015: Ace, 2 years younger than me, CJ major.
2016: Jaime, allegedly had a crush on me.
2017: Scotty, was who I liked.
2018: Second Ace, who was approximately also two years younger than me, and a CJ major.
2019: Davey, who happens to be two years older than me. lol

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